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It Had To Be You by izhann, red_windmill
Fandoms: Chinese Actor RPF, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) RPF
08 Sep 2020
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The first time he saved Yibo, he was just another upperclassman that just happened to be at the right place, right time. He couldn’t really say the same about the second time, when Yibo found him lying on the school grounds with a hand frantically trying to shake him awake.
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Reasons For Not Letting Go by izhann, red_windmill
Fandom Chinese Actor RPF, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) RPF
08 Sep 2020
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A decennial hunt draws neighboring princes to Camelot to track a dangerous three-headed beast, but things go south when one of them starts pursuing Merlin instead.
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Books are defaced. But it's all for a good cause. Really.
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06 May 2026
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“I asked you about this once, you know. Whether or not magic had a place in Camelot.”
The oddest expression springs across Merlin’s face; hope. “And what did I say?”
(After a magical artifact comes into play, Merlin from s1 is transported into a version of s5, a time where Merlin will do anything, anything to keep Arthur alive. Arthur has to deal with the aftermath.)
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07 Apr 2026
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“I now know what it’s like to see the light leave a man’s eyes,” Merlin says, and he steps towards his younger self. “I have condemned my people to the pyre for years because it will keep Arthur safe. That’s who you are, Merlin, and that’s why I never told him. I know the prophesies, and if magic was allowed into this land, it’ll kill Arthur.”
“You’d condemn yourself and your entire people just to keep Arthur alive?” Young Merlin whispers. Tears are welling up in his eyes.
“Course I would,” Arthur’s Merlin says simply. “I was made to serve him.”
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He can't explain it. One day, Arthur's swinging a mace at the boy with the big ears and red neckerchief and the next, he's tackling a man twice his size for having the audacity to look at Merlin wrong.
Or, Arthur protects Merlin over and over, falling a little more in love each time.
“You’re the only person in the world that I think really sees me Merlin.” Arthur confesses. "Forgive me then, for wishing harm on the people who would hurt you for just being who you are.”
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23 Mar 2026
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But every day there is Merlin.
His father and uncle are dead. Morgana is gone. Just a servant, he thinks, bitter. He was always worth twenty of you. Merlin’s affections would never be weaponized like Uther’s. He will never betray him like Morgana did, over and over. He will never lie to him like Agravaine. When he lost his family, when he lost his crown, when he lost his way, there was always ever only one that remained.
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“I think you’re the only person who truly knows me.” Arthur confesses, pulling away “And the thought of that scares me, because if one day you choose to leave me, I’ll know it’s truly because of me.”
Merlin looks like he wants to protest, profess his endless fealty. Arthur can’t help the fondness that gushes from every bit of him. “Merlin, you really do worry too much.” His teasing is gentle, like the flap of a butterfly’s wing, “I just meant…I’ll keep putting in everything I have into becoming the man you think I am.”
“You’re already him, Arthur.” Merlin insists, shaking his head, “One day you’ll see that, you ridiculous man.”
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Arthur thought him and Merlin getting kidnapped and tossed in an inescapable room was the worst of his luck.
If only that were true.
Or, a look into what Merlin is willing to sacrifice for Arthur and the prices Arthur is never willing for the person he loves to pay.
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23 Mar 2026
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“I know you love me.” Merlin whispers, “But let me tell you that I love you more. That I love you so ruinously, so wholly, it’s you before me. Always. If you want my life,” Merlin’s hands fall to the grass, “you can take it.”
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“You’re an idiot!” Arthur shouts, “You’re my heart Merlin, don’t you understand that? You’re me. You’re mine. And I won’t allow you to treat what belongs to me with such derision. It’s you before me. It’s you Merlin, because I can’t do this without you.” Arthur grits his jaw, forcing all his feeling into the hard slant of his eyes, “I won’t."