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Jisung doesn’t fuck up their stage but it’s a close call. The others praise him for being extra energetic but Jisung is just plain panicking.
Because “not here” doesn’t mean “not ever” and Jisung’s not really sure what to do with that information.
By the end of the show he’s determined to bring it up to Minho, to talk about it once they’re alone.
In the van on the way home though he’s already convinced himself that it was just a joke, or that Minho meant something else, and that he’s reading way too much into it.
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Jisung realizes he has feelings for Minho. Minho is already there. And that might not be the only thing Jisung learns about himself.
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“Did you guys talk?” Chan asks.
“Yeah.” Felix ducks his head, can’t help it. He schools his expression before he faces him.
“Anything I should know?” Chan sounds neutral, kind even. But the words trigger something inside Felix, a deep panic. He can already see the headlines, because he saw them, plain and loud and awful, just not about them. Can see the tears in his member's eyes for a second as if this is the foregone conclusion of the path he’s now walking on.
“No, nothing,” Felix lies and wants to throw up. “We’re good.”
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Felix and Hyunjin keep their relationship from the other members. Until they catch on.
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- Part 8 of Soft Like Sin
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“Yongbokkie told me you’ve been sleeping together?”
Later, Hyunjin will be amazed at how immediately his brain registers the words. There’s no delay, no puzzled look over to Seungmin while his mind is trying to catch up. The understanding waltzes into him, sudden and complete.
“It was just something to take the edge off,” Hyunjin croaks, not even sure where the lie comes from, and his own words make his stomach turn with how wrong they are. He’s like an actor playing a part he was clearly miscast for. He wants to be sick. He wants to run.
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Not being with Felix takes a toll on Hyunjin.
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- Part 7 of Soft Like Sin
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It all falls into place then. He knew, of course, he knew, saw Felix’s face appear in the studio once he realized what was happening to him. It had been faint then, somehow. A truth so barely acknowledged that it lived only in the back of Hyunjin’s mind, a secret, wrapped in layers of paper so no one would ever take a glance at it, not even him, even though he knew it sat there, uncovered but solid. Real.
It’s different now that the secret had been dragged into the light, the paper torn to shreds, and there’s barely any surprise, his mind only catching up to what his body already knew, but his heart squeezes with the realization, surging through the pure, sweet taste of loving someone so deeply, only to sour when the thought hits him, that the flower growing in his chest and the petals making their way up his throat can only mean one thing:
He’s in love with Felix, but Felix doesn’t love him back.
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Hyunjin stays. Eventually, when it’s less than an hour to Seungmin’s arrival, they climb out of bed and shower, and Felix opens all the windows to air the apartment out. They both can’t help blushing as they clean what they can, removing all traces of how they spent their hours, and then the giggles come, and Felix loves every second of it.
Loves the way Hyunjin looks at him now, the intimate gaze of a lover, of someone who knows you inside and out, and where that knowledge is not met with shame.
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Hyunjin and Felix finally give in to what's pulling them together. And they're happy. Until they're not.
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- Part 6 of Soft Like Sin
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Restraint by germanjj, headabovethewater, PeachyPerfect (headabovethewater)
Fandom Call Me By Your Name (2017) RPF, Call Me By Your Name - All Media Types, Larry Stylinson - Fandom, One Direction (Band)
13 Feb 2022
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Buried Under Clear Glass (Finished Series) by germanjj
Fandom Call Me By Your Name (2017), Call Me By Your Name (2017) RPF, Call Me By Your Name - All Media Types
17 May 2020
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When he looks back, it seems pretty obvious. But as it happens, it's kind of sneaking up on them. This whole ... friendship. Or whatever this is.
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He feels himself coming unstuck in pieces: first the hands clasped in Bang Chan’s, then the unravelling of his feet against the linoleum hallway floor, and then the flutter in his chest at the touch of a pretty boy. Minho closes his eyes against the nausea of it. When he opens them again, the JYP building with its ugly long hallways and unnerving practice rooms is gone, but — oddly — the boy remains, though he’s across the room rather than close enough to touch.
Seven times Minho's members don't notice he's slipped sideways in time, and one time they do.
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03 May 2026
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Seungmin had always loved. Baseball first, back when he was just strong enough to hold a bat. Then music, at nine, when his mum signed him up for piano lessons he didn’t want but never quite let go of. A boy from primary school —sweaty palms, a laugh too loud, a stolen kiss on the cheek in the gym showers.
Bang Chan, when Seungmin was seventeen, and every day after that.
Or: glimpses of Seungmin’s life and all the times he wasn’t loved back, and maybe—just maybe—the one time he was.
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20 Apr 2025
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Jisung presses closer, slings an arm around Jeongin’s shoulders. He puts on a voice, the one they all do when they talk to him: sweet, and gentle, like he’s still young. “Don’t you love me, maknae-yah –” kissing Jeongin’s cheek, his chin, the corners of his eyes. “Don’t you love me, Ayen-ah?”
Well. That’s kind of the problem. Jisung’s lips land a little too close to his and he pulls back like he’s been burned.
“Changbin-hyung,” he says, “does – does he look good on his knees?”
Jeongin is an adult who is perfectly capable of having sex. His hyungs, much to his chagrin, would beg to differ.
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24 Dec 2024
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“Sucking dick,” Hyunjin says, a flash of his usual brattiness appearing alongside the sensual lilt to his mouth.
Felix isn’t deterred. “Fucking someone.”
“Being fucked,” says Minho lazily.
Or: Stray Kids somehow get onto the topic of what they miss most about being able to go out and hook up. Dirty talk (and feelings) ensue.
Bookmarked by germanjj
10 Oct 2024
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What could they do about it? They were idols, coworkers, dormmates, friends, and Minho had already accepted that was the best he would get. Closeness from an arms length. Affection, but just a dip of the toe in the shallow end of the absolute pool of love he feels for Jeongin. Jeongin can never know the true depth of it. Minho would drown. He would drown the world and drag Jeongin down with him.
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07 Jan 2024