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When Shane Hollander was drafted, he thought he would retire in Montreal with a C on his chest. A decade later, he understands that dream was never possible. This is the story of everything that happens in between.
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- Part 3 of After the Whistle
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Scott Hunter is not cut out to be anyone’s gay mentor, and yet here he is—for the second time in a week—trying to help two rising stars figure their shit out. It would be fine, except as much as he tries to avoid it, he keeps also having to examine his own life.
(Or what would have happened if Scott and Shane didn't have an on ice fight? A semi fix-it for Episode 2)
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- Part 2 of The Kids are Alright
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"Where's your boy Rozanov?"
Scott Hunter is not prepared for the reaction he gets to such a simple question. What follows is a conversation that takes both him and the two most promising new stars of the MLH down a different path (A semi-fix it for Episode 1).
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- Part 1 of The Kids are Alright
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Shane Hollander, Ottawa Centaur, is struggling to settle into his new team. He also has more support than he knows.
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Five times the Centaurs noticed something was off and one time they did something about it.
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Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.
He stands at the entrance a beat too long.
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It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.
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- Part 1 of After the Whistle
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Shane Hollander is everything a team could want. He shows up early, stays late, and fixes mistakes before they ever become more then blips. By every metric he is the perfect player.
Perfection, it turns out, is not the same thing as being okay.
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Staring at the Sun by Nerve_Itch
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
20 May 2026
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The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating.
The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice.
“I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”
Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.
“Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"
Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little.
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Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.- Language:
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12 Jun 2026
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Fragile, Fragile to the Bone by lust2dust
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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“Fuck you,” Shane bites back, but there’s a tug at his lips because this feels less scary. Familiar.
Ilya nods. “Yes, maybe. We will see.”
“Ilya—“
“Name is okay now?”
“Can you stop?” Shane demands, ripping his hand through his hair in frustration. “I said I was sorry—“
“Stop what?” Ilya snaps back. “I try and you leave. I don’t, you give me sad eyes. What do you want?”
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Or, after Shane walks out on him, Ilya decides Shane isn't great at making decisions anymore.Bookmarked by esh
09 Jun 2026
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Mr. Answer Man by BigPlushShark
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jun 2026
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In room 1410, Ilya Rozanov is ready to walk out the door after successfully getting his 19 year old hockey rival into bed. He knew how to make this moment happen and he knows what they have to be to each other now that it's over. But as he turns the doorknob to leave, he's stopped with questions he never expected. And giving Shane Hollander what he needs in that moment will change everything.
There's a lot of explicit content but I try to note which chapters are SFW vs NFSW.
Covers the first two years of their rookie seasons (which is mostly skipped over in the show/books). Canon divergent from the first hookup seen in HR s01ep01. Most things are from the show but the timeline is a mix of both; Hunter and Marleau are aged up per the show instead of as young as they are in the books. (Also, Shane and Ilya don't wait *two years*, they stick to the book timeline. IYKYK.)
Please note this will the first in a series; you can subscribe to the whole series as well so you don't miss anything :)
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08 Jun 2026
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“You have a ride back home, right? Please tell me you aren’t going to drive. You’ll crash one of your stupid sports cars and get a concussion. Or die.”
“Awe, so sweet to me, worrying. But no, I am in Moscow. I have no good cars here, only shitty Marussia B2. Stupid purchase. You know, the B2 is just B1 but with fancier clothes? Look better than B1, though. B1 look like low-money 80’s future movie.” He makes an annoyed sound. “No. I do not have word. научная фантастика. What is movie type that has flying cars?”
“Jesus,” Shane says, running a hand through his hair. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard you talk so much.”
“You like my voice, da? So is no problem, for you.”
“Fuck you. Do you mean sci-fi?”
Rozanov makes a triumphant sound. “Yes, that! Sci-fi. B1 look like that meme of a cat’s face covered in cream. Ugly car. So, at least I have better choice. I can look at it and not wish to drive it off cliff and into garbage land.”
“...You’re thinking of a landfill.”
Or, Ilya keeps calling Shane at odd hours to talk about nothing and everything. Shane, for some reason he can’t quite rationalize, keeps answering. And texting. And then things get a bit out of hand.
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- Part 1 of Hello/Goodbye, Dear/Sincerely Universe
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05 Jun 2026
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Ilya:
9/10 she had frecklesShane:
7.5/10 Medium dick but he ate my ass like he was starving for it---
Shane and Ilya call it quits after the All-Stars game when Ilya says they can't be anything. He says no one will fuck Shane like he can, and Shane takes that personally, starting a two year cycle of sending each other ratings of the other people they fuck
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03 Jun 2026