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    “I, uh, came to ask for a ride."

    Luca glanced sideways at Boodram, who was frozen with one arm in his jacket. It truly would have been hilarious, the way they all watched this scene unfold like a car crash, if it didn’t also feel like one.

    They shared a confused glance, turning back when Rozanov’s incredulous “A ride?” rang through the locker room.

    “Yeah, I, uh, figured I could use one since I just…quit the Metros,” Hollander said slowly, heaving an exhausted sigh afterwards.

    In which Shane Hollander overhears his teammates talking about him before a game and ends up in the Centaurs' locker room, asking Ilya Rozanov for a ride.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    KILL ME

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    No matter the trope.
    No matter the universe.
    No matter the setup.
    They find each other.

    He rolled over, already thinking about which train he should catch to head home when he came face to face with–

    – a child.

    “AH!” Ilya squeaked, more high-pitched than he would ever admit. Her eyes widened at the undignified noise, but she didn’t say anything, nor did she back away. She was probably… six? Seven? Hell, Ilya was terrible at guessing kids’ ages. She had black hair, pulled up in pigtails, and very pretty brown eyes. She was holding a stuffed cat that looked well-loved in her arms. It seemed to be missing an eye. She gave him a once-over and suddenly Ilya felt like he was being inspected.

    Suddenly remembering that he was only wearing underwear, Ilya pulled the covers up to his chin. “Um. Hello,” he said.

    “Why are you in Dad’s bed?”

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    21 Jun 2026

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    soooo perfect!!!

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

    Or

    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    ABSOLUTE PERFECTION! they find each other in every fucking universe and don’t you forget it. their dynamic stood out to me in this fic, they are equals ALWAYS and know each other so fucking well my heartttt

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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    17 Jun 2026

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    beautiful. just absolutely gorgeous. a fic that just feels like love 🥹❤️

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    i would die for ollie, shane & ilya no questions asked