1 - 20 of 130 Bookmarks by chemonya
Navigation
List of Bookmarks
-
It’s Getting Better in the Worst Way by aliencritters
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thor (Movies)
24 Mar 2025
Tags
Summary
The corner of Thor’s lip twitched, his eyes growing stormy. “If you would stop lying to me, I could help.”
“Help with what?” Loki said.
“You know exactly what.”
—
OR: Thor takes Loki out to eat. The problem is, Loki doesn’t want to eat. He can only take so much before it reaches a breaking point.
BAD-THINGS-HAPPEN-BINGO PROMPT FILL: Nervous Breakdown
Bookmarked by chemonya
30 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
It starts gradually, like most things in life do. Like rips forming in the back of his favorite Reebok’s. Like dead, brown leaves falling under late-November clouds. Matt never really sees it all coming until it’s too late.
The stages of Matt’s eating disorder, told in 2 parts.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,780
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 55
- Kudos:
- 222
- Bookmarks:
- 29
- Hits:
- 3,888
Bookmarked by chemonya
29 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Ilya Rozanov has dinner with the Hollanders now. Once a week at least, at Yuna's insistence because he turns into a young, innocent boy every time she speaks. He looks at her adoringly.
He watches David watch her.
David just watches his wife.
;
or: david hollander vs grigori rozanov's terrible parenting- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,130
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 132
- Kudos:
- 1,328
- Bookmarks:
- 226
- Hits:
- 15,072
Bookmarked by chemonya
23 Jun 2026
-
The Cottage, The Cookies, and The Cigarettes by Fingers_McTypo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Jun 2026
Tags
Summary
Ilya has been at Shane's cottage for a week when he starts to feel unwell. Shane is booked in to present an award in New York with his mother, leaving David Hollander to hold the fort.
David starts to notice something about Ilya that worries him.
A emotional little fic in three parts.
Ilya really needs a hug, and some IV medication. And then another hug.Bookmarked by chemonya
23 Jun 2026
-
'Cause baby I've never seen brown eyes look so blue by UrLocalChaoticLesbian
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
Tags
Summary
Ilya Rozanov was not scared of death.
He didn’t understand how anyone could be. Death was not scary to him. That doesn’t mean he was being careless or actively seeking out ways to die.
I mean sure, he could admit he didn’t look both ways before crossing the road, or stop drinking when on medication or even drink responsibly at that. He didn’t panic when he held his breath underwater for just that bit too long it started to burn his lungs and yeah, he could get a bit clumsy when using kitchen knives, sometimes wondering what would happen if he just moved his blade that bit closer to his wrist, thinking about how it would cut deep and bleed and then he-
Ilya Rozanov wasn’t scared of death and he wasn’t actively seeking it out. Not that he would tell anyone if he wasOR
Ilya rozanov is depressed, traumatised and slavic so he refuses to accept help from the people who care about him and tries to just man up and take it (but shocker he can't)Series
Bookmarked by chemonya
21 Jun 2026
-
Nothing by finelinelive
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 May 2026
Tags
Summary
He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.
/
ORIlya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.
Bookmarked by chemonya
21 Jun 2026
-
You Said Fuck Off and I Said Nothing for a While by Disventure_123
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
27 May 2026
Tags
Summary
After the Boxing Day fight ends with words neither Shane nor Ilya can take back, their relationship quietly fractures under the weight of hockey, secrecy, and everything left unsaid.
Weeks later, the breakup still echoes louder than either of them admits. When Shane starts moving on, Ilya tries to convince himself he’s fine—until a game in Boston forces everything he’s been avoiding straight to the surface.
On the ice, something breaks.
In the locker room afterward, Ilya finally says out loud what he’s been carrying since that night: the fight, the feeling of being someone’s second choice, and the words that never stopped replaying in his head.
Because sometimes the hardest part isn’t losing someone.
It’s realizing exactly when you started to.
Bookmarked by chemonya
20 Jun 2026
-
Shatterproof by ilyasweed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
08 Jun 2026
Tags
Summary
Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.
The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.
Bookmarked by chemonya
20 Jun 2026
-
All Love Must Leave but Search For It I Will by TeaTimeAllOverTown
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jun 2026
Tags
Summary
Again, Ilya feels the shame flare in his belly. He imagines his father across the counter from them, watching this unfold. Watching Ilya be babied by his fucking boyfriend over an injury. He remembered how he’d yell at his mother for babying Ilya, the word soft being thrown around a lot.
But Ilya likes being babied. He likes watching Shane fuss and frown as he portions out the pills, filling a glass with Ilya’s favorite juice to wash them down with, then bustling up and back down the stairs with Ilya’s favorite pillow and the sleep mask he keeps in his travel bag for planes and hotels.
He is soft. Weak too, probably. His father’s voice spits through his thoughts, sharp and disgusted. Ilya feels them settle on his shoulders, tug at his spine.
“You okay?” Shane asks, hair messy from the shower, Ilya’s pillow against his chest.
His father’s voice fades.
“Yes, moya lyubov. I am okay.”
-
Or, a shoulder injury takes Ilya out for the season ten games into his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs. With one good arm and an empty house, Ilya battles with memories of his parents and his mental health.Bookmarked by chemonya
20 Jun 2026
-
Diversion by SarahJeanne
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Jun 2026
Tags
Summary
Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.
Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.
Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.
In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.
Bookmarked by chemonya
20 Jun 2026
-
Hide It Away by Ficswithcloud for allfortheBoyds
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
12 Feb 2026
Tags
Summary
Kevin Day, guitarist and lead singer for their three-man band, is on his third tour down the East Coast. He is also madly in love with their manager, Jeremy. It´s difficult, sharing car spaces and motel rooms with him, and Kevin´s anxiety is not making things easier for him. There has never been a plan for him to confess, to talk about his feelings, but life is nothing if not unpredictable.
Series
- Part 5 of Yes or No : A Soundtrack
Bookmarked by chemonya
19 Jun 2026
-
Ruin to Rescue: An HGTV Renovation Special by bleuvelvet
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
16 Apr 2026
Tags
Summary
Due to a family emergency, Lemar (John's best friend and co-host) has to take a leave from their hit renovation show just before they're set to begin filming the newest season, leaving John with the possibility of hosting on his own. Not to worry, however, Yelena has a solution in the form of the once wildly popular restoration expert, Bucky Barnes.
Too bad they already hate each other.
(AKA, the HGTV AU nobody asked for.)
Bookmarked by chemonya
17 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Shane climbs on top of him then, swinging a muscular thigh over Ilya’s shoulder, and then he’s seated on Ilya’s chest, his knees framing Ilya’s head, leaning back so he can still look down and lock eyes with him. “You can do this, can’t you? Just be good and keep that mouth open for me. Let me grind on your tongue, make myself feel good since you can’t do it.”
And it’s a lie, of course it is, both of them know Ilya was making Shane feel so good he couldn’t even handle it, but fuck. Ilya nods, desperate and dizzy with it, opening his mouth already, showing his tongue off to Shane like he’s proving himself, look at me, I can follow commands, I can open my mouth for you, I can stick my tongue out and pant for you like a fucking dog, he thinks.
“Fuck, you look stupid,” is the last thing Shane says before he lifts his hips up, taking his weight off of Ilya’s chest, and lowers himself down until his cheeks are smothering Ilya, until Ilya’s tongue is right against his hole, warm and engulfing, and Shane’s balls are resting heavy on his face.
---
Part 3 of pathetic, loser, stoner, frat bro Ilya x cool, confident, slightly mean jock Shane
Series
- Part 3 of Stoner Ilya
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,254
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Comments:
- 201
- Kudos:
- 2,599
- Bookmarks:
- 304
- Hits:
- 18,529
Bookmarked by chemonya
16 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
“Tony?”
A single word. So sickeningly familiar. Something Tony desperately wanted to hear for months, this cadence, this voice. He clenched his jaw and took a deep breath, forcing back the tears. His hands still shaking.
“Tone? You there?”
———
Tony is at Cardiff University, Sid is in New York. Six months later their paths cross again.Bookmarked by chemonya
15 Jun 2026
-
Know Me by satancalledmedarling for fungus_amongus00
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
15 Feb 2025
Tags
Summary
Two Olympic medals, one career-ending injury and zero defense against Jeremy Knox’s eternal sunshine.
Kevin Day’s second act is off to a spectacular start.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 25,500
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 66
- Kudos:
- 208
- Bookmarks:
- 49
- Hits:
- 2,954
Bookmarked by chemonya
15 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Evan Buckley is five years old when he realizes that he doesn’t feel pain.
Evan is five and a half when he learns how to pretend.
Over the years, Buck gets really, really good at pretending.
That is, until the day Eddie gets shot right in front of him.
***
An AU where Buck is unable to feel pain.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 20,110
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Comments:
- 107
- Kudos:
- 1,067
- Bookmarks:
- 246
- Hits:
- 13,556
Bookmarked by chemonya
14 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
John was fortunate — his super soldier physiology had kept him from transforming into some mindless, hairy beast — but that's where his fortune had ended.
Because now he was officially off-duty for the stupidest reason possible.
"Aww, don't mope, Walker. I think you look cute."
John glared at Yelena, who had stayed with him in the medical bay until he was cleared to join everyone else in the debriefing room. "I am not cute," he growled, teeth bared.
"Not when you are making that face, no," she replied, totally unfazed. "But the ears and tail are nice."
John grumbled, his ears drooping. Because that's what his ears could do now. His stupid floppy dog ears that looked like two bent over triangles on top of his head, and his stupid furry dog tail sticking out behind him. "This sucks."
Bookmarked by chemonya
13 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Jeremy slips both hands under the legs of Kevin’s underwear. He massages the junction between Kevin’s thighs and pelvis, thumbs rubbing the base of his cock. “Mhmm. Look in the mirror and tell me you have pretty eyes.”
“But—you didn’t say—“
“You’re right. Jean says you have long eyelashes, and he says you have a pretty green color, and he’s obviously right but you don’t believe him. Say it like you mean it, and even if you don’t, you’re going to look me in the face and act like you do. Maybe if I force you to do that enough times, you’ll start to understand,” Jeremy explains. Kevin looks completely mortified, blushing so hard it burns against Jeremy’s temple. The back of his neck glows pink, chest rising and dropping fast with his breaths.
They look at each other in the reflection, Jeremy giving an expectant brow raise.
“You’re mean,” Kevin says.
“I know.”
Kevin sighs.
———
AKA: Jeremy notices Kevin treating himself like he’s expendable in their relationship, so he forces Kevin to acknowledge his own worth. And he makes Kevin wear Jean’s jersey. Just for fun.
Bookmarked by chemonya
11 Jun 2026
-
Seems that things have turned around by telonulea for poetic_ivy
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
20 Feb 2026
Tags
Summary
After returning from rehab, Kevin thinks that things are bound to turn around for him. He's sober, he's in therapy, but more than that, he's determined to win the championships to prove just how much better he's faring. Things get complicated when Jean gets traded to his team and old wounds begin to bleed anew.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,788
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 8
- Kudos:
- 76
- Bookmarks:
- 11
- Hits:
- 725
Bookmarked by chemonya
11 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Kevin learned long ago that love and pain go hand in hand. So when his relationship with Daniel turns controlling, cruel and eventually violent, Kevin convinces himself he deserves it. He hides the bruises, withdraws from his teammates and slowly makes himself smaller trying to become easier to love. But when Jean Moreau transfers to New York, he recognizes the signs almost immediately: the fear, the flinching, the exhaustion. Jean has seen Kevin survive monsters before and he refuses to watch Kevin lose himself to another.
Bookmarked by chemonya
10 Jun 2026