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It starts gradually, like most things in life do. Like rips forming in the back of his favorite Reebok’s. Like dead, brown leaves falling under late-November clouds. Matt never really sees it all coming until it’s too late.
The stages of Matt’s eating disorder, told in 2 parts.
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29 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has dinner with the Hollanders now. Once a week at least, at Yuna's insistence because he turns into a young, innocent boy every time she speaks. He looks at her adoringly.
He watches David watch her.
David just watches his wife.
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23 Jun 2026
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The Cottage, The Cookies, and The Cigarettes by Fingers_McTypo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Jun 2026
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Ilya has been at Shane's cottage for a week when he starts to feel unwell. Shane is booked in to present an award in New York with his mother, leaving David Hollander to hold the fort.
David starts to notice something about Ilya that worries him.
A emotional little fic in three parts.
Ilya really needs a hug, and some IV medication. And then another hug.Bookmarked by chemonya
23 Jun 2026
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'Cause baby I've never seen brown eyes look so blue by UrLocalChaoticLesbian
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov was not scared of death.
He didn’t understand how anyone could be. Death was not scary to him. That doesn’t mean he was being careless or actively seeking out ways to die.
I mean sure, he could admit he didn’t look both ways before crossing the road, or stop drinking when on medication or even drink responsibly at that. He didn’t panic when he held his breath underwater for just that bit too long it started to burn his lungs and yeah, he could get a bit clumsy when using kitchen knives, sometimes wondering what would happen if he just moved his blade that bit closer to his wrist, thinking about how it would cut deep and bleed and then he-
Ilya Rozanov wasn’t scared of death and he wasn’t actively seeking it out. Not that he would tell anyone if he wasOR
Ilya rozanov is depressed, traumatised and slavic so he refuses to accept help from the people who care about him and tries to just man up and take it (but shocker he can't)Series
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21 Jun 2026
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Nothing by finelinelive
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 May 2026
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He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.
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ORIlya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.
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21 Jun 2026