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  1. Public Bookmark 20

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    “C’mon, it’s a long drive. Give me something to work with.”

    Felix pauses, then unpurses his lips to say, “I’m not fun, I don’t like to talk, and I didn’t ask to be here.”

    “You’re shortchanging me.” Sylvain smiles. It’s a lot of smiling for just under an hour. Maybe he’s not used to company anymore. “I knew that last one already.”

    Sylvain, a trucker, takes Felix on as a reluctant passenger. They figure out their destination en route.

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    27 Oct 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 8

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    The clink of his drink order being set down has Sylvain swiveling back to the bar. He’s breathing weird. Shallow, and uncomfortable. Dying? Maybe he’s dying. Desperate fingers smudge across the cheap crystal; he takes a good sip and prays it’ll fix him.

    It does nothing—not with the movement in his periphery as the man takes a seat at the bar. He does, at least, respect customary etiquette, leaving a stool and a chasm between them. Still, Sylvain wonders if he’ll manage the proximity.

    The winter only ever brings bitterness to Sylvain. Why should this year be any different?

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    26 Jun 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 35

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    On Sylvain's desk there is a bottle of liquor, a quarter drank. More full than Felix had anticipated, which meant either it was a new bottle or he really didn't give Sylvain enough credit.

    It was next to a dagger. A dagger, likely a gift from Dimitri, propped up near his letters. Perhaps Sylvain reached for it when finishing up his letters to his father, a quiet little thought constantly strumming in the back of Sylvain's mind.

    This was a conversation that needed to be had, at some point. Not tonight, however. Tonight, Felix had to be as much of a comfort as he was capable.

    He hoped he was enough.

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    19 Mar 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 60

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    Felix has made his peace with Sylvain chasing after everyone with a pulse—peace, in this context, being redefined as has learned to tolerate the stabbing ache in his gut, to the point that he doesn’t notice it unless he thinks about it too hard, like an exposed nerve you learn how to live with—because he’s always known none of them really matter. It still sucks. It still feels like a kick to the chest sometimes, cracked ribs and short breath. But it’s survivable, because none of them have phone numbers Sylvain has memorised, like Ingrid’s, or birthdays he could recite half-asleep and drunk out of his mind, like Dimitri’s. None of them get to see the way Sylvain smiles when he means it, that crooked thing that slips out on Claude’s kitchen floor at two in the morning, like Felix does.

    (These are the facts of the universe: water is wet, the sky is blue, and Sylvain Gautier will never want Felix Fraldarius.)

    —The Faerghus four play a drinking game (Sylvain’s fault). More truths come out than intended (everyone’s fault).

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    16 Mar 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 6

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    “I’m waiting.”

    Felix’s eyes slowly cracked open and man, if looks could kill, Sylvain would be halfway to hell by now. Not even moving his lips, teeth clenched so hard they could break:

    “This. Was fun.”

    “Aw, now that doesn’t sound very sincere, does it Fe? Why don’t you try again? With passion this time.”

    Felix uncrossed his arms to slam a fist on the table.

    On a quiet afternoon in the Fraldarius summer house, Sylvain and Felix play a game.

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    10 Mar 2025

  6. Public Bookmark 47

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    Eye contact is not Felix’s strong suit and it’s Sylvain’s specialty. Felix is but a deer in the headlights. Frozen and pathetic. Sylvain, meanwhile, has no qualms in holding their silent staring match with the touch of a smirk on his insufferable lips. Like he sees past Felix’s ire, like he’s carving Felix’s insides out with a spoon to examine at his leisure before swallowing him whole.

    Oh, Felix despises him.

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    21 Dec 2024

  7. Public Bookmark 14

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    In the great scheme of things, there are far more important things to worry about than who Felix may or may not be asking to Dorothea’s opera on Friday— especially considering that the whole damn continent is at war— but Sylvain has always been exceptionally good at hyperfocusing on all the wrong things. Besides, he finds this preferable to worrying about the fate of Faerghus, even though it somehow gives him the same sense of dread in the pit of his stomach.

    It’s ridiculous, honestly. Felix is a grown man and can do what he wants, and Sylvain has no idea why he’s getting so worked up over it. He’ll find out his answer one way or another, anyway.

    Or, Sylvain overhears a conversation between Felix and Dorothea and is completely and totally normal about it.

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    06 Aug 2024

  8. Public Bookmark 33

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    “Alright, so let’s see what we’re working with. Open wide for me?”

    Shit. Felix’s face lights up red and he begs Sylvain doesn’t notice.

    Here’s the thing. Felix hates the dentist for a plethora of reasons (see above). But the main one? Because when Sylvain says open wide, Felix loses it a little. A lot.

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    Felix hates the dentist. It's becoming a huge problem.

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    21 Jun 2024

  9. Public Bookmark *

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    “Is everything about fighting for you, Felix?” Sylvain asks, throwing his hands in the air. “Do you ever want anything else?”

    The man who wanted more than strength died in the Tragedy of Duscur too. He couldn’t say that, though, because if he said that – then he would have to admit what he used to care about more than his sword. And he couldn’t – not to Sylvain. So instead, he says, “What’s more important than strength?”

    “Haven’t you ever been in love?”

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    19 Jun 2024

  10. Public Bookmark 36

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    A flashback reel of Sylvain’s greatest trespasses from the last few weeks drew a neat line to this moment, wherein he’d been shut out of his own apartment, his shared apartment, so that the guy he’s had some kind of huge, awful, life-sustaining feeling for since they were teenagers could have sex in peace.

    Sylvain thinks he knows the game they’re playing right up until Felix changes the rules.

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    17 Jun 2024

  11. Public Bookmark 20

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    Felix had protested, at least at first. “Share a bed? Like we’re boys again, hiding from our parents and giggling under the covers?”

    “Why not?” Sylvain asked. “I wouldn’t mind sharing a bed with you.”

    “Why not?” Felix repeated, studying Sylvain’s features carefully for any sign of his usual lascivious teasing and finding none. “Because, you’re always—always…“

    “I’m always what?” He watched as Felix’s words caught in his throat, mouth snapping shut like a slamming door. It’s not the first time Felix stopped just short of the truth; they’ve been dancing around what’s been going on between them for years. Sylvain wanted to reach over and pry the words from Felix’s lips himself. If only it were that simple.

     

    Or: Long repressed feelings resurface with a vengeance when Felix and Sylvain find themselves sharing a bed in the midst of the war.

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    17 Jun 2024

  12. Public Bookmark 24

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    "Felix, are you ok in there?"

    Felix resolutely ignores the knocking on the door as he stares at his reflection in the floor length mirror. It feels like someone else is staring back at him. This is fine, he tells himself. Hilda and Annette take each other lingerie shopping all the time and they're not dating. He’s fairly certain they take Ashe with them as well. If he can't do this sort of thing with his childhood best friend, well, who else is there to ask? This is totally fine.

    Just two bros being bros, he thinks half hysterically to himself.

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    17 Jun 2024

  13. Public Bookmark 41

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    “Sylvain looks at you like you walk on water,” Dorothea says. “Everyone has noticed. The professor has noticed. You know how bad she is at social cues. Everyone, except for you, I suppose, and we’re sick of it. Mercie and Annie have gotten their act together, now it’s your turn.”

    “It’s because it’s not happening,” Felix deflects, “and you are all imagining it.”
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    Felix falls for Sylvain in pieces.

    He hates it.

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    12 Jun 2024

  14. Public Bookmark 19

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    Felix finds himself alone in Sylvain's room with a bottle of pent-up emotions and a very inviting bed that smells distinctly like Sylvain. Oh, and also his trusty right hand is there.

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    09 Jun 2024

  15. Public Bookmark 3

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    Sylvain woke up to the feeling of bristly hair rested against his bare chest. He hated this part. The girl would wake up, assuming they'd be together forever, only to be disappointed when Sylvain sent her off. Then, the inevitable scolding, commonly including the phrases 'I'm better than other girls,' and 'You're just a player.' Sylvain had grown used to the chastising he received from women after turning them down. When she did wake up, the conversation went just as he'd expected. After getting fed up, she left Sylvain alone.

    Sylvain has slept with dozens of girls, but he had never felt true happiness with any of them.

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    08 Jun 2024

  16. Public Bookmark 7

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    “You’re important to me, Felix.” He wasn’t sure they were the right words, but they were the only words that came.

    The reply came after a few beats of silence, Felix still averting his gaze. “Yeah.”

    “Say it back.”

    That seemed to catch him by surprise. He chuckled and snatched his hand away. “Fuck you.” He shot back, a surprised grin spreading across his face.

    Modern / College AU

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    01 Jun 2024

  17. Public Bookmark 4

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    “At least you're having fun,” Felix grumbled, pouting slightly. “I’m so excruciatingly bored.”

    “Well, if that's the case,” Sylvain began, reaching an arm back to wrap around Felix’s shoulder. Felix’s eyes went wide. “We could play a game. Or something. Whatever you want.”

    And that's what Felix enjoyed, he liked Sylvain's attention to him, his ability to strain out the negative and replace it with the positive. He liked how Sylvain made it his top priority to entertain Felix that night, he liked the feeling of them racing through the halls of the palace and then wheezing at jokes. He liked Sylvain's hands holding his, he liked his stupid smile whenever Felix made a witty remark.

    But now, Felix ached for that feeling again. Now, Felix was older. And he couldn't let himself enjoy that again.

    Right?

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    31 May 2024

  18. Public Bookmark 2

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    Sylvain and Felix end up having to share a room with one bed. Felix finds issue with that and decides to sleep on the floor. Sylvain tries to reason with his friend.

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    29 May 2024

  19. Public Bookmark 4

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    Struggling with his recent romantic failures, Sylvain complains to Felix, hoping for sympathy and maybe a distraction. Instead, he discovers that Felix is unexpectedly popular with the girls in the academy, prompting Sylvain to rethink some of his long-held assumptions.

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    29 May 2024

  20. Public Bookmark 21

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    ‘So I heard an interesting piece of gossip the other day.’ Dorothea greeted him.

    They’d developed a sort of kinship as of late – a result of their mutual disdain for the numerous impersonal marriage offers they both received regularly – so it didn’t come as a surprise when she sat down across from him like they were the best of friends.

    ‘See, I have reason to believe you know how to braid hair.’

    ‘If that’s the most interesting gossip you’ve heard, I fear your sources may be running dry.’ Sylvain replied, stabbing his meat pie just a little too harshly.

    Dorothea gave him a knowing smile.

    ‘I was just curious where you’d picked up such a skill.’ she said. ‘As far as I know, you don’t have any sisters, meaning—’

    ‘I’ll tell you the same thing I told F…reya.’

    ‘Faye.’

    ‘Close enough.’ he groaned. ‘Look, I learned how to braid for the horses, alright? Like I said, war horses deserve to feel pretty too, so—’

    ‘I didn’t know Felix was a horse now.’

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    Or: Sylvain used to braid Felix's hair, before their world fell apart. Now their world is still falling apart, but maybe, just maybe, Felix would let him braid his hair anyway.

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    29 May 2024

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