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The Last Quiet Hour by PersephoneJStone
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jul 2026
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Shane Hollander loves Ilya Rozanov.
He loves their quiet mornings in Ottawa, the life they're building together, the future they're finally planning out loud.
Or as out loud as they are allowed to right now.
Ilya loves Shane just as much.
But, sometimes, loving someone isn't the hard part or can deliver the healing we think it should be able to.
Sometimes, surviving yourself is.
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Wake Up Alone, And I’ll Be Forgotten by RavReads
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
13 Jul 2026
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Yuna
5:26pmIlya, are you not feeling well? The announcers just said you aren’t playing tonight. Do you want us to drop by with some dinner or need any medicine?
Yuna
6:01pmIlya, could you just let us know you are okay?
David
6:35pmWe are going to drop by your house, Ilya, we will be there in fifteen minutes
Yuna
6:57pmShane, call us as soon as the game is over.
Somewhere private.
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Ilya felt the life drain out of him and suddenly he wished he was sleeping again. Anything but here, anything but stuck trapped in his body and mind. The dazed nothingness was missed like a torn limb ejected from his body, leaving him in a state of shock.
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Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”
“Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”
He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.
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Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.
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Give Yourself A Reason by groundsquirrel
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Jun 2026
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Ilya Hollander-Rozanov has been receiving mental health treatment for years. He and Shane have a system, have a plan, have a life together. Depression has other plans.
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or time spent sitting with Ilya's depression and wondering what a bad episode could look like in a life where he has it more under control. stole the title from Call Your Mom by Noah Kahan
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