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    "And they, well. They brought in an omega specialist?”

    “Specialist?” Ilya asked, his tone wary. The word sounded uncomfortable in his mouth, so Shane tried to fill in the gaps.

    “A doctor. For omegas.”

    That threw Rozanov off for a second. “But you are not omega?”

    Shane scrunched up his face, creasing the skin on his forehead and around his eyes. Taking a deep breath, he dropped the first of his two bombs. “No, Rozanov. I am. I’m an omega.”

    He heard the Russian hum on the other side, considering this. “Makes sense. Is why you are so pretty. And why you have such nice ass.”

    Shane’s ears burned. “Shut up, stop talking about my ass.”

    “But I can still talk about how pretty you are, yes?”

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    hellooooooo i am back and i am writing the alpha/omega fanfic of my dreams!!! do not wake me im exactly where i wanna be!!! aka a fuck or die where shane is on suppressants for far too long and calls ilya for help with his terrible horrible awful no good impending heat - but the circumstances and the yearning are magnified by like a billion times <3 yay!

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    18 May 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    16 May 2026

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    Shane’s nearing 40, and while he knows he still has good hockey years left in him, he needs to be realistic. He’s ready to begin what he’s started mentally calling, “The Final Act.” First order of business, signing with the Ottawa Centaurs. He’s won four Stanley Cups with the Montreal Metros, but Shane’s always dreamed of retiring in his hometown.

    Sure, he’s a little nervous about being teammates with his career-long rival. But he and Rozanov aren’t kids anymore. Truthfully, Shane’s giddy at the thought of ending his career alongside Ilya. It definitely has nothing to do with the crush he’s been harboring since draft night.

    Shane’s going to win another cup (or two). He’s going to retire after a few solid years with Ottawa. And, my god, he’s going to flirt with his rival. Even if he plans to never confess his true feelings.

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    CCM wants two separate shoots, and Shane and Ilya never get the chance to start their journey together. Nearly two decades later, they’re finally in the same place at the same time. They’re playing on the same line and might actually be friends. But two rookies with hearts in their eyes are going to make the vets reflect on what could’ve been.

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    06 May 2026

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    After Rose helps Shane realize his sexuality, he decides he needs to come out to the important people in his life. He's not ready to be out publicly, but he needs friends in his corner.

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    05 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander had a plan. It was a good plan, just as every other plan he’d ever made was a good plan. Then he watched a video of a burning plane carrying the love of his life and it became the only plan he’d ever changed.

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    Shane goes to Tampa. The next morning, Troy Barrett receives a text from Ilya:

    “Bringing boyfriend to breakfast. Tell team to be not weird.”

    The Centaurs are, unsurprisingly, weird about it but become the best support system they could ask for as Shane and Ilya navigate the choice to fully begin their lives together and love each other out loud.

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    03 May 2026