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    “Did I do something wrong?”

    “No. No, Hollander,” Ilya coughed, eyes flitting around the room. “Is just– Is too much.”

    “This is… too much?” Shane repeated slowly, incredulously. “We see each other maybe once a month. Less, even.”

    “No. Is not that– You are just,” Ilya swore under his breath in Russian. His accent was getting thicker, the words clunkier, in the way it always got stronger when he was frustrated or tired. Shane hated himself for recognizing it. “...too much.”

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    In the Heated Rivalry book, Ilya intends to break things off with Shane the night of the All-Star Game, but then Shane gets hurt. What if Shane never gets injured by Marlow, and Ilya really does break things off?

    (Basically, a shit ton of angst and Shane Hollander learning to love himself. There will be a happy ending!)

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    08 Mar 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    02 Jan 2026

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    It has been six months since Mo Ran has seen Chu Wanning. It has been on purpose. Once Chu Wanning had been promoted upwards in both position and office floor, Mo Ran made sure to give wide berth to the cold and unfeeling man who’s butted heads with him since he started at Sisheng.

    This changes one night, when a friend puts forth a wager.

    “Not him.”

    “Hm?” Mei Hanxue peers over, and his eyes go wide before an absolutely shit-eating smile crosses his face. He doesn’t even bother with an over-saccharine “Why not?” because he can already see Mo Ran’s hackles start to rise.

    “No,” Mo Ran warns before Mei Hanxue can open his mouth, and Mei Hanxue gives him a positively feline look. “Do you want me to die?”

    “For him, I’ll double what I said I’d give you,” Mei Hanxue says and Mo Ran raises an eyebrow. “What? If he says yes, it’d be one of mankind’s greatest accomplishments. Statues would be made in your honour.”

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    04 Jun 2023

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    Bunji finds an injured fox during his evening patrol. He feels sorry for the pathetic little ball of orange fluff, so he takes it home to the jingshi to bandage it’s paw. Lan wangji assumes that his new friend is a simple mortal fox in need of nursing, for Fox spirits haven’t been seen for centuries since the last of the foxes followed Boshan Sanren into the immortal forest. Huli Jing are natural predators to rabbit spirits and bringing one into his home would be dangerous. The fox is actually FoxXian, who after a few days turns back into human form. Seduction ensues and Bunji gets a nice railing.

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    03 Apr 2023

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    Laurent wakes screaming. He’s dying. He must be. It’s the only explanation he has for the utter agony, confusion and terror that he feels. His brain is splitting itself open, bits of it strewn across space and time. He’s twenty one, in Arles, finally crowned. He’s fourteen, at Chastillon, on his knees for his uncle. He’s twenty, in Ios, watching a blade sink into Damen’s side. He’s sixteen, all alone, dreaming of revenge.

    Last night Laurent had thrust his arm at Damen, “attend me,” he had commanded, as if Damen weren’t a king in his own right. Last night, Uncle had sat on his bed, played chess with him. “I will always have time for you,” he had reassured Laurent, “even though Auguste has outgrown you.”

    Laurent leans to the side and vomits, violently. His fingers shake as he pushes his hair back, slowly, the room spins into focus. His hair is shorter than he remembers, Damen likes it long. His hair is exactly the same, cut by his nursemaid once a month.

    He is thirteen, at Marlas, and he knows everything.

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    30 Nov 2022