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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Ilya’s brows quirked again, and he flicked open the first page of the textbook, ‘and you decided to learn Russian now because...?’

    ‘Because I married a Russian man, and I figured it was about time I learned.’

    ‘You never learned with me.’ Ilya said.

    ‘No.’ Shane replied, tersely, ‘there was a lot I never did with you.’

    Or: After Shane's college relationship ends in heartbreak, he patches up his wounds by marrying a wealthy older man, and he's so sure his life is perfect. That is, until his ex re-enters the picture, and he wonders if maybe he got it all wrong.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    It was so silly. Ilya knew that. It was so beyond silly. He just couldn’t shake the feeling of dread, the feeling of regret. He regretted not kissing him. He regrets letting his mind dictate his actions and deprive him from happiness.

    “I should’ve kissed you, Hollander” Ilya muttered to himself, wiping the stray tears that fell from his eyes. Because now, he had to go back to Russia with the regret of not kissing him. God. He was so stupid.

    His phone dinging and lighting up snapped him out of his trance, he figured it was one of his teammates. When he looked at his phone, a message from Jane popped up. He was surprised, almost speechless actually. It read “We didn’t even kiss,” it shocked Ilya the most. Was Shane feeling the same way? Did Shane have this burning hole that felt like he was being eaten alive too?

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    Shane sends accidentally sends the text but from Ilya's POV

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    "If I make it out of this alive mama, I’ll cherish every moment we have, whether it’s in the sun or in dark corners. I will earn his love, on his terms, just please let me make it right. I love you mama, and I miss you so much, but not yet. Please don’t take me yet. Let me hold him one more time."

    Or: The plane crash in the Long Game, but what if Shane didn't immediately know that Ilya was okay.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Wiebe could tell he was wearing Ilya down, but he still looked nervous. "Ilya," Ilya stilled. To his team he was always Rozanov or Roz or Rozy, never Ilya. "You're our guy. There's nobody I'd rather be our captain, to lead this team to another Stanley Cup. It's clear you don't like the guy, but we both know how good this could be."

    Ilya jerked his head in a nod. "We will destroy everyone, this is true." Wiebe seemed satisfied. Ilya stood to leave and delivered one last look at Wiebe "But I do not have to be happy about it."

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    Shane and Ilya are estranged for years after Tuna Meltdown. Then Shane confuses everyone by signing with the Raiders.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya's heart shouldn’t be pounding at the prospect of having Shane in his arms once again. And yet, it was.

    When Ilya exited the club, he saw Shane inside a sensible car—a blue Jeep. Seconds later, the car was skirting off the gravel road. Ilya tried his best not to be disappointed, or hurt, but managed neither.

    (Or Alt. post-club scene from Ilya's POV. He finds Shane's car pulled on the side of the road. They talk.)

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    04 Apr 2026

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    “My - it’s my,” Shane pants, his hand flapping like Ilya’s sometimes does when he’s searching for an English translation that he can’t quite remember. Shane’s heart squeezes painfully. “He’s-“

    He wants to say my boyfriend is on that plane. He wants to cry, and throw things, and scream the love of my life might be dying while we stand here. But he doesn’t. He can’t. His voice can’t find the words, can’t find the strength to speak, and even if he could - would he? Would Shane tell the whole world that for him, it has always been Ilya? Will only ever be Ilya?

     

    (Or, the plane scene in The Long Game goes a little differently.)

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    02 Apr 2026

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    Ethan finally turned away from the game and made his way over to Shane to press up against his back as Shane slipped his shoes on. Shane turned in his arms to kiss Ethan, but as he brought his face closer, Ethan laughed and pulled back to look at him.

    “Wait, you’re not really gonna wear those ugly reading glasses to dinner, are you?”

    Shane’s face flushed as he reached up and took his glasses off before setting them on the side table next to the door. A loud noise startled him and he looked over to see that Ilya had tossed his game controller onto the coffee table haphazardly. He stood up abruptly, nostrils flared and mouth pinched into a tight line as he stalked off to his bedroom, muttering something in Russian along the way.

    or, Shane has a shitty boyfriend that Ilya can't stand because he's in love with him and everyone in the house knows but Shane.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Ilya crouched down until he was at eye level with Shane.

    He reached out and brushed his hand along Shane’s jaw gently. Shane’s eyes fluttered closed as he leaned into Ilya’s touch.

    Ilya watched it happen, how it was so instinctive… the same way Shane always softened immediately under his hands or when in his presence.

    “You’re so responsive for me, Shane,” he murmured, lifting Shane’s chin slightly to face him. Shane slowly opened his eyes to look at him.

    Ilya leaned in, bringing their faces close enough that he could feel the hot air from Shane’s breath.

    “So tell me something,” Ilya said quietly. “Does Hayden ever get to see you like this?”

    “Or is he just playing with my property?”

    ----

    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped & hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better and the lines between their friendship get blurred. Ilya gets incredibly jealous and fights to win him back. They all end up hurting until they learn how to communicate.

    There are both Shayden & Hollanov spicy scenes but *no threesomes* - This fic gets VERY messy and toxic but has a happy Hollanov ending!

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    31 Mar 2026

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    It's 2016 and Ilya Rozanov has just been added to the WAG group chat as his alias lily, he is immediately befriended by them! There's one problem though... they don't know his true identity and wine night is in 3 weeks.

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    31 Mar 2026

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