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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Ilya’s brows quirked again, and he flicked open the first page of the textbook, ‘and you decided to learn Russian now because...?’

    ‘Because I married a Russian man, and I figured it was about time I learned.’

    ‘You never learned with me.’ Ilya said.

    ‘No.’ Shane replied, tersely, ‘there was a lot I never did with you.’

    Or: After Shane's college relationship ends in heartbreak, he patches up his wounds by marrying a wealthy older man, and he's so sure his life is perfect. That is, until his ex re-enters the picture, and he wonders if maybe he got it all wrong.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    It was so silly. Ilya knew that. It was so beyond silly. He just couldn’t shake the feeling of dread, the feeling of regret. He regretted not kissing him. He regrets letting his mind dictate his actions and deprive him from happiness.

    “I should’ve kissed you, Hollander” Ilya muttered to himself, wiping the stray tears that fell from his eyes. Because now, he had to go back to Russia with the regret of not kissing him. God. He was so stupid.

    His phone dinging and lighting up snapped him out of his trance, he figured it was one of his teammates. When he looked at his phone, a message from Jane popped up. He was surprised, almost speechless actually. It read “We didn’t even kiss,” it shocked Ilya the most. Was Shane feeling the same way? Did Shane have this burning hole that felt like he was being eaten alive too?

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    Shane sends accidentally sends the text but from Ilya's POV

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    02 Jun 2026