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The air is cold, and the room smells of dust and cheap laundry detergent.
Dean Winchester lies on his back on a sagging motel mattress, springs pressing through thin fabric, brutal against his spine, a bottle of whiskey within arm’s reach.
Under normal circumstances, that would sound like a great time to Dean—but not tonight.
He’s stranded in a rundown motel in White River, South Dakota, bleeding through a hastily wrapped bandage on his thigh.
Just a flesh wound—that’s what he keeps telling himself.
He drinks because he has to.
He’d never admit to needing painkillers—never give Sam or anyone else that satisfaction—but he needs something to take the edge off.
Pain has a way of dragging up memories he’d rather keep buried.
It always circles back to his dad.
John Winchester never let him show weakness.
You shake it off.
You walk it off.
You bleed later, if at all.
Pain was for wimps, and Dean learned early that wimps didn’t survive.
He groans as he shifts, trying to find a position that doesn’t make his leg scream in protest. No luck.
His phone is dead, and there’s no way he’s making the drive back to Lebanon, Kansas, like this. He’s stuck—alone, hurting, and sober enough to feel all of it.
He hopes Sammy is busy enough not to notice his absence from the check-in.
They rarely split up—but this time they had to.
Sam is chasing some mysterious fires in Wichita, Cas is off with Claire, and Dean is bleeding out in a nowhere motel in South Dakota.
He’d volunteered to go alone. He wanted space.
Something’s been off for weeks—this low, constant irritation he can’t shake. He doesn’t know where the anger comes from. Maybe it’s just who he is now.
Ever since Hell. Ever since Cas pulled him out, it feels like whatever happiness he had stayed behind.
He tried to make it work with Lisa. Tried to be normal. But his heart was never really in it.
“Pff. No chick-flick moments,” he mutters, trying to clear his head.
The whiskey is finally starting to do something.
Dean groans at the thought of letting people worry about him.
Why should they worry about him?
Hunting was the only thing he’d ever been good at. The only thing that ever stuck.
Eventually, the pain blurs around the edges.
Not gone—never gone—but quieter.
Dean takes another swallow of whiskey, staring up at the stained ceiling, and figures that’s about as good as it’s going to get tonight.
His vision blurs, the edges of the room smearing together as his grip loosens around the bottle. It slips from his fingers, glass thudding softly against the carpeted floor, and then the darkness pulls him under
A sharp, booming sound jerks Dean awake.
His brain is foggy, but his first instinct is to reach for his gun under the pillow.
He shakes his head, trying to wake up, and realizes the noise is knocking—yelling—right outside the door.
“Sir? Hello? Sir, are you in there?”
The voice gets louder.
“Yes, I’m fine!” Dean snaps, not wanting anyone to see the blood and bottles scattered across the room.
“Sir, you’ve passed the checkout time. If you’re not able to check out now, we’ll have to charge you for another night.”
“Okay, charge it to my credit card,” Dean huffs.
He’s cranky—bad hangover, no coffee, and a stinging pain in his leg reminding him he’s not exactly at his best.
The knocking continues.
Dean drags himself upright, wincing as his leg protests.
He can practically feel the whiskey still buzzing through his veins.
He shuffles to the door, opens it a crack, and squints against the sunlight.
A young motel clerk stands there, clipboard in hand, looking alarmed.
“Sir, are you okay?” the kid asks again, eyes flicking to the blood on Dean’s leg and the bottles on the floor.
Dean grits his teeth. “I told you—I’m fine,” he snaps, trying to sound authoritative. His voice comes out hoarse, unsteady. “Just… just checking out.”
The clerk raises an eyebrow. “Uh… right. You’re bleeding. And there’s broken glass—”
Dean holds up a hand. “Don’t worry about it. It’s under control.”
He stands in front of the kid, trying not to wobble too much. Every movement is a reminder of the wound he doesn’t want anyone to see. Inside, he silently curses himself for ever thinking whiskey was a good idea.
“Credit card?” the clerk says hesitantly.
Dean waves a hand. “Charge it. Just… don’t tell anyone.”
The kid blinks. “Right…”
Dean shuts the door behind him, muttering under his breath. “Never again. Never. Again.”
He starts tidying up the room and grabbing his duffel bag. He needs to get out of here—fast.
Dean slings his duffel over one shoulder and limps toward the door, wincing with every step. The bright light of the sun seeps through the motel’s grimy windows, casting the parking lot in pale, muted colors. Everything is quiet—too quiet.
He squints against the sun, expecting an empty lot. Instead, standing near his car, coat waving in the wind, tie slightly askew, is Cas. The angel looks calm, unshaken, as if he’s been standing there waiting for hours.
Dean walks closer to the Impala, closer to Cas.
“Dean,” Cas says, voice steady and low. “You’re hurt.”
Dean freezes halfway—the whiskey haze in his head makes him second-guess his train of thought.
“Uh… yeah. Just a scratch. Nothing serious,” he mutters, trying to sound casual—but the croak in his voice betrays him.
Cas tilts his head with his piercing blue eyes fixed on Dean. “You’ve been drinking. You’re limping. You’re not fine.”
Dean grits his teeth, shifting his weight painfully. “I can handle it. I always do.”
Cas takes a step closer. The February air is crisp, carrying the faint smell of diesel and pine from the nearby road. “Dean, you don’t have to. Let me help.”
He wants to argue, to insist he’s fine, but the pain in his leg and the pounding in his head make words fail him.
He can't bring himself to refuse Castiel's help.
Dean swallows hard, muttering, “Yeah… maybe I could use a hand.”
He hates how much easier it is to breathe with Cas standing there.
Cas nods once, silently, and lifts the duffel from Dean’s shoulder. “We’ll get you somewhere safe. Then I’ll patch this up.”
Dean scowls, half-annoyed, half-relieved. “Safe, huh? Don’t make it sound like I’m dying or something.”
“You’re not,” Cas says simply, voice calm against the quiet morning. “But you need care.”
Dean shakes his head, trying to mask his gratitude. The pale light hits his face, making the dark circles under his eyes more noticeable. He’s tired, sore, and—uncomfortably—relieved. Cas’s presence is steady, grounding for the first time since the night before.
Dean leans heavily on his good leg, trying to look casual as Cas slings the duffel over one arm.
Cas walks over to the Impala and puts Dean's duffel in the trunk.
Cas closes the trunk and walks over to Dean.
He tries to take Dean's arm to sling it over his shoulder.
Dean lets Cas do his thing while he squints up at the angel, curiosity mixing with suspicion.
“Okay… I’ve gotta ask,” he says, voice rough. “How the hell did you even find me?”
Cas tilts his head, his blue eyes unblinking.
“I was aware of your wound,” he says. “And I sensed the stress on your body—the bleeding, the dehydration, the lingering effects of alcohol. It led me here.”
Dean blinks. “Wait… you felt all that?”
“Yes,” Cas replies. His tone is calm, almost clinical. “Pain. Disorientation. Your attempts to hide how badly you were hurt. You would have eventually become unable to care for yourself, which is why I came immediately.”
Dean lets out a low groan. “Great. So you were basically stalking me while I was sprawled out in a dumpy motel?”
Cas doesn’t flinch. “Observation, not stalking. I was concerned.”
Dean snorts, rubbing his face. “Yeah… well, thanks, I guess.” He tries to straighten up but winces as his leg complains. “Not that I make a habit of needing saving, you know.”
“You don’t,” Cas says, voice even. “But sometimes you do. That does not make you weak. It makes you human.”
Dean swallows, muttering under his breath, “Being human sucks sometimes…”
Cas doesn’t reply.
As they reach the car, Dean tries to get into the passenger seat.
Dean huffs but lets Cas help him.
Castiel watches as Dean shifts, trying to mask how much the leg hurts.
The sun behind the clouds casts a long shadow across the lot, highlighting Dean’s disheveled, battered state. Cas’ calm presence is steady beside him, a silent reassurance.
Cas gets into the driver's seat, and the engine rumbles to life.
Dean is slightly out of it, but he tries to relax.
Castiel's presence helps him think more clearly.
He never really understood it.
Must be that bond Castiel once told him about.
Probably also the reason why Cas could find him.
Dean doesn't mind it; it's weird to have someone to look out for him.
There is, of course, Sam, but that's different; Dean will always be more of a parental figure to Sam.
“Dean…”
Castiel’s deep voice rumbles out above the sound of the engine.
"Hmm?" Dean hums while feeling smaller than he’s used to.
His father would have called this weakness—and punished it.
“When I get you to safety, I can heal you.
I know you would prefer it if I didn't, but I don't want to see you suffer in pain,” Cas tells him.
Dean stays quiet and turns his head towards the window; he can sense there is no room for argument.
Dean leans against the cold glass and closes his eyes.