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I don’t remember when I started to hate you
Probably the day we had to take you home
Well, hate might be too strong of a word now that I think about it
At most, I probably just really disliked you
You showed up one day out of the blue and just never left
Mom did tell me of your arrival ahead of time, probably
But hey, three-year-olds are not known for their memorization skills
I had prepared myself to ‘hate’ you with all my might
Nothing would have ever changed my mind
Then you suddenly grabbed my finger and smiled at me
You pulled my hair after that, but it didn’t matter
I don’t remember when I started to tolerate you
It probably had to do with me going to school
School and homework made it hard for us to interact much
After all, I was gone for most of the day and was busy the rest of it
Not that you would interact with me even if the occasion allowed for it
Little boys don’t pay much attention to their sisters after all
Hot Wheels and the Hulk and Max Stell stole your attention most of the time
With those options why would you even look at your boring older sister?
I only liked reading and ponies back then so it's not like you could have joined in
Then you grabbed a picture book and tried to read it to me
Tried being the keyword since you could not read your own name yet
I don’t remember when I started to like you
It probably had something to do with moving to another country
The loneliness of not knowing how to talk was uniting in a way
The bus lady sat us next to each other so we could not avoid each other
Neither of us knew how to tell her we wanted to sit somewhere else
You tried to sit somewhere else at first but she caught you each time
That was around the time Ty The Creep started to ‘flirt’ with me remember?
The day he pushed you out of the seat I thought you would just sit somewhere else
After all, why wouldn’t you when you had the perfect excuse?
Then you pulled him out of the seat and stepped on him
You never tried to switch seats again
I don’t remember when everything changed
Maybe when your chubby smile melted my heart
Even when you pulled my hair and tried to bite me
Maybe when you tried to read me a book at age two
Although you held the book upside down and ‘read’ it backwards
Maybe when you 'fought' Ty The Creep in my honor and 'won'
Don’t think I forgot you standing on his ribs and sticking you toungue out at him
I may never remember the moment everything changed
Or if it changed due to a number of countless little moments
Not that I think it really matters anymore
After all, I truly do love you now little brother