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Kaeya, he was tired of everything.
He was tired of having to pretend to put on the mask he wore every day.
He was tired of lying to people about who he was.
He was tired of trying to fix his relationship with his brother, Ahh they are not brothers anymore since that incident.
He…. He was tired of continuing to say that he was fine.
Sometimes kaeya wonders to himself, why did he endure this long ?, For people who will not necessarily continue to believe, especially when his secret is revealed?.
Or for mondstadt who could throw him away at any moment?, Moreover, he's just a stranger who actually has a mission to spy on mondstadt?.
Or for his brother, he meant his ex-brother who openly hated him, moreover he already knew a secret.
It was only a matter of time before his secret was exposed and he was finally hated.
He's tired. He was tired of being a lowly liar, who always hid his true face under his mask.
He was tired, he was tired of having to think about whom to betray.
Where one time when he finally chose his home, his origin began to approach him and demand trust.
His brother is right....
What diluc said back then was true.....
He's a traitor. He's a despicable traitor who only takes people's trust only to be betrayed at any time.
He was a traitor, even his heart betrayed himself.
His heart decided to protect them all, what had been keeping kaeya afloat. Even his heart made him forget the purpose he was here for.
But if they know the truth then in the end he will be hated, because basically he is a traitor.
Kaeya, he's tired, he's tired of continuing to lie.
Kaeya walked, he kept walking even though he didn't know where he was going. He felt like he just wanted to disappear.
He didn't know where he was going, he couldn't think straight, but what he did know was that his feet were like being submerged in water.
Looks like he went to some lake or ocean, he doesn't know.
He continued walking until the water had submerged part of his body. That's good..... at least let him rest this time.
He had reached his limit.
The water has drowned him, that's good, let him rest.
Let the water drown him, drown him with all the sins he has committed.
The sin of betraying their trust and continuing to tell sickening lies.
The sin of betraying the trust that diluc had given him over the years.
Sin because he was late in saving the person he had considered * father *.
He is truly a disgusting sinner.
He doesn't deserve all the affection they gave him back then.
He doesn't deserve it, because everything was destroyed cause him.
Crepus was dead, and he had corrupted diluc, by betraying him, telling himself everything.
When he wants to trust someone, all he gets is anger.
Therefore, he allowed himself to drown, so that he would remember all his sins
If his current life was worth paying for everything, then he would give it.
Because guilt always creeps in his heart.
He... deserved to die.
Let the water drown him, along with the memories he has formed all this time, with this he is already happy, at least with this he can atone for his sins.
Because in the first place his feelings for all of them would only be poison to them.