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    Shane Hollander loves playing for the Ottawa Centaurs. Leaving Montreal, as painful as it had been, really has been one of the best decisions he’s ever made.

    He gets to play with his husband. He’s supported at all levels, from upper management down to the most casual of fans, and his teammates are genuinely kind and lovely people who care about him and his life and are invested in his well-being.

    Considering where he came from, Shane thinks it’s wonderful to work with such caring players who want what’s best for him and notice things about his life. It's really, really great.

    Until it isn’t, of course.

    “Hollander, what the fuck is that on your face?” Zane Boodram asks in the locker room while they’re changing for game five of the first round of playoffs.

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    Or Shane has a mysterious rash, and his teammates are very concerned.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are thirty-five, still dominant on the ice, and absolutely, definitely not ready to become parents. But in a matter of weeks, Shane learns that he has a breeding kink, a few extra organs, and a medical condition that turns what he previously considered a medical impossibility into a tiny blip on a CT scan.

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    The medically feasible mpreg nobody asked for but I wrote anyway. This piece is complete, beta read, and will be released in three-chapter increments. [UPDATE: All parts now available! Thanks for reading. <3]

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 3 - 16/6/26
    Chapter 6 - 19/6/26
    Chapter 9 - 20/6/26
    Chapter 12 - 22/6/26

    Well written and thoroughly enjoyable mpreg without the hand wavy 'magic' explanation.

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    Shane had never really considered the concept of having children but then the Game Changers camp happened and Ilya was leading a pack of little kids dressed in hockey gear like a flock of ducklings. It was revelatory and Cassie Boodram was there to witness it.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Ilya looks over from the sofa as Jackie heads into the living room, perking up in interest. “You are calling Pike? Was good play today. You remembered how to score! Well done.”

    Hayden groans. "Rozanov? Dude, what are you doing in my fucking house?

    "It is girls' night," Ilya informs him primly. "I am one of girls."

    Or: Game day at the Pike house.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    Reread 21/6/26