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    Buck: are you alone?
    Eddie: Alone in the livingroom, yeah.
    Buck: he’s asleep in his room, right? door closed?
    Eddie: I’m not actually about to jerk off to your mediocre sexting, Buck.
    Buck: this isn’t gonna work if you don’t go with me 🙄

    Or: Buck stumbles across Eddie's grindr profile.

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    04 Jun 2025

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    “Come on, you’re telling me you wouldn’t consider sneaking into a storage closet with me?”

    “Obviously, I would!” Eddie was whisper-yelling now, and Buck wasn’t sure exactly what point he was trying to make, but he was enjoying every second of this. “But one of us is going to have to have restraint and it has to be the—the one with the most experience.”

    Buck felt his mouth drop open in delight. “Eddie,” he admonished. “Are you calling me a whore?”

    “No!” said Eddie, looking increasingly flustered. “I just mean—clearly you have the power to do—” he gestured at Buck, “that, so you have the—the responsibility to, like, use it. Responsibly.”

    “Did you just quote Spiderman?”

    Eddie propped his elbows on the table and dropped his head into his hands, groaning dramatically. “I’m going to die. The first date, and I’m going to die.”

    “Been there, wouldn’t recommend it.”

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    Buck and Eddie and the first date.

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    01 Jun 2025

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    Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.

    But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.

    Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.

     

    (or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)

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    21 May 2025

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    Seonghwa explores and questions his sexuality while enjoying a weekly bonding session with his roommate Hongjoong.

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    31 Mar 2025

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    Hongjoong had a plan.

    1) Get into a good university.
    2) Survive.
    3) Graduate and get a good job.
    4) Pay back his mom for everything she did for him.

    Nowhere on that list did he account for friends.
    Nor did he account for a blindingly kind and gentle popular boy on campus looking at Hongjoong with eyes that were much too warm and genuine, and a personality that seemed too good to be true.

    All he knew was that he would not be some rich kid’s plaything.
    No matter how warm his smile was.

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    26 Jan 2025

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