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Ace just wanted the noise to stop.
After the war, silence feels louder than cannon fire and sleep doesn't come easy. The memories are louder than the sea, and guilt burns hotter than any fire he can summon. So when dockside stranger offers something that promises weightlessness, five quiet minutes without guilt, without visions of an imposing figure falling against the blood soaked sky of Marineford, Ace takes it.
For a moment, the world feels manageable again.
Then, Ace falls off a pier.
He almost drowns.
When does he admit he's struggling?
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Ace does drugs to cope with feelings after impel down and watching Pops die at Marineford, now with angst and fluff, and a dash of silliness.Bookmarked by weirdbeard
17 Jul 2026
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Rossi really didn't know what had gone wrong. A simple witness questioning had turned a complete 180 and gone to hell in the blink of an eye. All he knew was that one moment their witness had been answering their standard questions as if nothing was amiss and the next, he was lying on the ground with a bullet through his skull.
Oh, and Reid had a knife shoved in his ribs.
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- Part 7 of Bad Things Happen To Spencer Reid Bingo
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14 Jul 2026
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Five Times the Batfamily Dealt with Jason's Fear of Needles by Muddell
Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types, DCU
07 Mar 2026
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“He’ll need stitches,” Alfred says decisively.
Stitches.
The word burrows through layers of confusion, pain, and discomfort, and alights something very small and scared in the back of Jason’s mind. He straightens. “No.”
Or, Jason has a fear of needles.
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- Part 3 of Jason's fives
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26 May 2026
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Grian shifted on his feet, uncomfortable under the weight of the villain’s gaze.
They both knew the question hanging between them. Why is a healer here?
Healers weren’t allowed to live quietly. They were accounted for. Watched. Used. Not serving coffee in a cat café.
When Phantom spoke again, his voice was steady in a way it hadn’t been before.
“I’m in your debt.”
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A Hermitcraft Hero AU where healer Grian is caught between villains, heroes, Mumbo’s overprotective instincts, and far too many cats.
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- Part 1 of Strays Verse
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23 May 2026
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Day 7: Emotional Breakdown by Rain_cloudsx
Fandoms: Star Trek, Star Trek: The Original Series (TV)
07 Apr 2026
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Day 7: Beaten with a bottle | Emotional breakdown | Too far | ”Why didn’t you come?”
Summary: Spock has a sensory overload on the bridge, and finally breaks.Series
- Part 7 of AitCM (April is the Cruelest Month) 2026
- Part 8 of Unrelated SPIRK Fics (But Author Has Never Seen Star Trek)
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22 May 2026
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Trypanophobia by Ryems
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga
07 Oct 2025
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Ed’s gaze snaps to him as soon as the door clicks shut. “Okay. So, there’s actually something you should know before the doctor gets in here.” he says in a rush. “I kinda have a–,” his face contorts like he’s in pain, “small,” he grits his teeth together before his face smooths out and he continues, “fear of needles. I know it’s irrational, and I don’t know why, but no amount of logic has really helped before and–”
“Woah, woah, Ed slow down.” Mustang steps forward and places his hands on the boy’s shoulders. He can feel the tremors running through them and he tentatively asks, “Exactly how small is small?”
“Umm…” Ed hesitates, “So, it might actually be a big fear. Massive, really. Like, seriously, you might have to hold me down when they get in here with them because I completely lose control.”
Whumptober 2025 Day 6 - Medical Restraints
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- Part 6 of Ryems Whumptober 2025
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22 May 2026
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our whispers in the dark by eggtimelads for mylareading
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)
28 Aug 2023
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"I must have!" Soap insists, and Gaz nearly flinches at how sincere he sounds. As if he truly believes that he's at fault here. "What did I do? Was it because of that, that episode," he spits the word out like it's a curse, voice growing more frantic as he continues, "I can fix it, I'll be better–"
"It’s not good for you to be here right now,” Price repeats, sounding almost exhausted. "You’re going to wind up dead one way another if I let this continue on, and I can’t, not with any good conscience. As your Captain and your friend, I’m going to tell you one last time to take some time off for yourself, else I'm going to have to take things into my own hands."
or, healing isn't the linear process everyone wants. No one is more pissed about this than Soap.
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- Part 2 of whispers
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15 May 2026
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Hermione Granger hasn't truly lived in years. As a Senior Lead Unspeakable in the Department of Mysteries antiquities division, she's replaced every friendship, warm meal, and quiet evening with work. The only person who seems to notice she's disappearing is the last person she'd expect: Draco Malfoy, her insufferable colleague who sends her home when her hands start shaking and slips Pepper-Up Potions into her desk when she isn't looking.
She doesn't know he's been in love with her for years. She doesn't know he's waiting for her to see him.
When an ancient Greek vessel unleashes a surge of wild magic that binds them together, unable to be more than two feet apart, the walls they've spent years building begin to crumble. And beneath the panic and the proximity, a quieter, more inconvenient magic begins to take root. One no spell can unwork. One that feels, inconveniently, like falling in love.
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05 May 2026
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Part three of 'Troubled'.
Dean gets worse and it is now his turn to be fussed over.Series
- Part 3 of Troubled
- Part 3 of Mysterious and Convenient Entity AU
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21 Apr 2026
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Huai Jin’s eyes and mouth were hot, but his cheeks were cold and sticky with drying tears. He sniffled and burrowed his face impossibly closer, curling on himself like that would help him fit better in Yi Dao’s lap—at sixteen, he already had the body of a maturing young man, and he was tall and heavy, despite how easily Yi Dao held him. Yet it looked like he did not even acknowledge his own size as something that could get in his way. He pressed himself snugly against Yi Dao’s own body, seeking comfort.
Yi Dao understood, then, that this must be how Jiang Yan and Han Xiangxun always held him since he was a child. He’d never grown out of it. How or why, Yi Dao couldn’t understand. He seriously doubted he could fit this easily in Han Xiangxun’s lap any longer—why was this kid so comfortable demanding affection like this? Not even a full day ago, he’d been willing to ditch Yi Dao to protect his aunt, and now he was nuzzling him like a starving kitten.
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20 Apr 2026
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an acquaintance in the corner (he guides me to the end) by Lolli_poppies
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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shane has a scar on his arm he regrets.
it sits there alone, the ones around it long since faded and blended back into the supple skin of his inner forearm, but this one stands out.
it's ugly and keloid after all these years, dead center in the middle, standing tall but not proud. a constant reminder of a shane hollander that died lifetimes ago.
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08 Apr 2026
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Out of the blue (and into the black) by Loveletterstostar
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Mar 2026
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“He replays the game in his head, every shot he could have, would have, should have made. The bruises, like wine spilled across his collar bone, dripping to his side from being slammed into the boards - a physical reminder of his shortcomings. Ilya liked the physical reminders, the pain illustrated on his skin providing clarity - forcing him to confront his own failure."
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After a crushing loss, Ilya finds himself beginning to slip into old habits to cope.
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08 Apr 2026
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“I’m fine,” Ilya insisted weakly, though his voice lacked conviction.
“You are bleeding all over our bathroom floor,” Shane said, his throat tight with fear. “You are not fine.”
Ilya tried to laugh.
The sound came out thin and uneven.
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01 Apr 2026
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Again and Again by glittergbbi
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Mar 2026
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Shane Hollander didn’t fight.
Everyone knew that, and it was accepted that he never would. Sure, he got into a heated argument with Scott Hunter, but even Gandhi would hardly classify that as a “fight”. This “fight” was a one in a million— until it wasn’t.
Shane Hollander didn’t fight, until he did.
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Shane Hollander blows up after being stretched too far
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27 Mar 2026
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Only If You Feel Empty Inside by fandombarf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
23 Mar 2026
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“Mama?” Ilya had asked, “What are those?” His tiny hands trace over the scars on her wrists and the new red lines that decorated them.
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Ilya understands what emptiness is when his Mama dies. After her death, Ilya starts cutting himself to feel closer to her. His father finds out and beats him for it.
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26 Mar 2026
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“Didn’t know I was talkin’ to fuckin’ Sherlock Holmes.”
Price snorts at your retort, “If I’m Sherlock, are you Watson?”
You think about it for a moment, before shaking your head negatively.
“No?” Price toes off his boots and walks over to you, sitting on the bed, “Then who are you?”
You sit down next to him, “I dunno. I’m like…”
“Like Neo,” you continue, ignoring the way Price’s eyebrows immediately raise, “and you’re Morpheus. But less smart.”
“You’re not Neo,” he scoffs, “and I’m not a less-smart Morpheus.”
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residual self-image is the mental projection of your digital self; it refers to your own physical appearance that is understood by you, that is projected unto you by yourself.
you see yourself as something to be ashamed of. price sees something different.
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- Part 16 of call of duty
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05 Mar 2026
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Simon “Ghost” Riley was not a man who would call himself attractive, nor would many other people, for that matter. John "Soap" MacTavish, the man who seems larger than life in every sense, sets out to prove Simon exactly how wrong he is, using the Japanese art of kintsugi.
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04 Mar 2026
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a bad habit (how did it come to this?) by fleezerweezer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has had the same bad habit for most of his life. When Shane takes it away from him, he falls down a rabbit hole of finding a replacement. Until he ends up on the worst one.
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4 bad habits and 1 that almost kills him.
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18 Feb 2026
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This Feelings Old, and I Know that I’ve Made up my Mind by K0maeda_88
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rosanov thought he understood depression, and how to handle it. He was supposed to be happy, living his life with Shane peacefully, exactly where he always wanted to be.
But he’s haunted by his family curse, ruining everything he touches.
And somehow, ending up like his mama doesn’t seem so scary anymore.
It might be his only way out.
TLDR: Ilyas mental health spirals fast, but he doesn’t dare let anyone know.
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18 Feb 2026
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It's okay to ask for help - Trigger Warning: Self-harm. by Iamnobodywhoareyou
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
30 Jun 2026
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Ilya is not okay, and he asks Shane for help. Ilya thinks he doesn't deserve to be cared about; Shane disagrees.
adding on to this and it's married Shane and Ilya instead, no sh.
Major trigger warning: depictions of self-harm and semi suicidal thoughts. Please read at your own risk.
Suicide Hotlines:
Canada: https://www.canada.ca/en/public-health/services/mental-health-services/mental-health-get-help.html
Russia: https://progress.guide/atlas/europe/russia/
UK: https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/feelings-symptoms-behaviours/behaviours/help-for-suicidal-thoughts/
USA: 988, https://988lifeline.org/
20+ countries https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/Other resources:
https://www.selfinjury.bctr.cornell.edu/perch/resources/distraction-techniques-pm-2.pdf
https://keltymentalhealth.ca/blog/2020/02/alternatives-self-injury
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/5-action-steps-to-help-someone-having-thoughts-of-suicide
https://www.chhs.ca.gov/suicide-prevention-resources/Series
- Part 2 of Ilya Rozanov needs therapy
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18 Feb 2026