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    Ilya sits down carefully and takes Shane’s hand. “I am going to ask you something, and I want you to try not to freak out, okay? Take a breath, think about it.”
    That sounds… serious.
    “The Centaurs are having a barbeque,” Ilya says. “I would like to go, and I would like you to come with me.”

    Shane meets the Centaurs. As Ilya's close personal friend slash charity partner from Canada.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    “We had a wedding this weekend, Miss Emma! With Uncle Shane,” Ruby Pike announces during Monday morning circle time. Miss Emma nods and tries to play it cool. It was exciting when the Pike twins mentioned Uncle Shane. Like he was just their dad’s totally normal BFF instead of the greatest hockey player Canada had seen in two decades. But she wasn’t going to fangirl in front of the kids.

    “Well, it was a pretend wedding—” Ruby starts to clarify, but then Jade Pike interrupts her.

    “Uncle Ilya said if you do the rings it’s a real wedding.”

    Miss Emma’s eyebrows shoot up into her hairline. Uncle…Ilya? As in…

    “Uncle Ilya said the rings and kiss made it real so we should tell Daddy to get him and Uncle Shane a very, VERY expensive gift,” Jade continues.

    There’s that name again. Uncle Ilya. In the same breath as Uncle Shane. With the word kiss. That couldn’t be right…

    Or: Five times someone unexpected keeps Shane and Ilya’s secret, and one time they don’t have to. Featuring the Pike twins, Zane Boodram’s pregnant wife, Ilya’s neighbors, and more.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    a companion piece to back and forth from new york showing the in-world social media response to the events of each chapter!!

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    13 Jul 2026

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    “It burns you, doesn’t it?” Ilya asks, watching his desperate movements. “Knowing that you’re mine.”

    “Fuck off,” Hollander says, breathless and not stopping. “I’m not—”

    “No?’ Ilya grabs Hollander’s hips and drags him closer, their cocks brushing each other, making Hollander gasp. “Is not what it looks like to me.”

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    Ilya stays an extra night in Montreal after episode 4 and visits Shane.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    “Need a bet to get laid, Rozanov? You’re really that desperate these days?”

    “Nostalgic, maybe.”

    “Wow. Big word.”

    “Shut up, Hollander.”

    Shane shuts up.

    “When I win,” Rozanov continues. “I get you for…twenty-four hours.”

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    Shane and Ilya are in rival frats in their senior year and it's time for the annual Greek Olympiad. A bet is made.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    [Ilya Rozanov yawns and stretches shirtless in his kitchen. Pajama pants hang low on his waist, and his hair is rumpled from sleep. He smiles and waves at the camera, and when he comes closer, he leans down so his face is level with the camera, his eyes bright even though he’s obviously tired.]

    Ilya: Good morning! It is ass o’clock, and I hate that I am awake, but today you are going to spend the day with me and my boyfriend. And I know what you are thinking, ‘what man could possibly be worthy of you, Ilya?’ and I get it. I ask myself this every day, but my boyfriend is very wonderful, even if he is much, much less famous than me and not nearly as good at hockey, and I think it’s about time you all get to know him. So, yay boyfriend reveal! And now I’m going to make him his disgusting breakfast smoothie, and then bring you along for our day together because my friend Harris Drover says I need more content on the internet, and what better way to do that than to tell you I’m bi, and that I have a boyfriend, and show you how disgustingly in love we are?

    [Ilya straightens so that his bare torso is the only thing in the frame, his abs flexing as he reaches over to turn on the blender.]

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    08 Jul 2026

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.

    Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.

    But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.

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    A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    On a Thursday, a video of Canadian star hockey player Shane Hollander goes viral on the internet. The video was taken on the previous Sunday, and it’s not what anybody expects. It’s not a sex tape, or a drunken fight in a bar, or any of the other videos that have been captured of others in the league, but instead, it seems to be a sneakily filmed video of Hollander confronting his former teammates.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “Why are you so sure he’ll reject you? He was already fucking in love with you, Roz, literally all of us knew it, it was clear just from how he looked at his fucking phone—”

    “That was— That was a fucking miracle, Pike. Miracles don’t happen twice.”

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    shane doesn't remember his relationship with ilya after the hit. ilya was going to break up with him anyway.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane rested his forehead against Ilya’s, closing his eyes. “I’m gonna ride you, is that okay?”

    Ilya nipped at his bottom lip. “I don’t know, let me think. This is same as asking me, is Shane Hollander the best hockey player in the world? Obviously yes.”

    And oh, the honest praise was all worth it for the private smile that lit up Shane’s face right then. He kissed Ilya once, slow and sweet. “Shut up,” he murmured, smiling into it. “You’re an asshole.”

    Ilya was a little achy with how happy he was, such a wild contrast to his overwhelming grief only moments ago. “I finally admit you are better than me, and now I am an asshole? I think not, Hollander.” He gripped Shane’s hips and flipped them over, the sound of Shane’s breathy laughter while Ilya kissed him into the mattress like medicine for his soul.

    Episode 5 in depth: the beach, the all-star game, and if Shane and Ilya made love in that hotel room before confessing their love.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    His next thought was irrational. Stupid, really. But maybe… maybe it was alright if he took just one. A real picture. Besides, no one would ever see it but him, and Shane would never have to know. Not if Ilya never told him about it.

    Knowing he can't have Shane the way he wants, Ilya keeps a secret picture of him, soundly asleep in Ilya’s bed after a hookup.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Why do I taste blood in your mouth, solnyshko?”

    “I told you, my ex said it’s annoying when I’m too loud during sex. I guess it’s a habit. I bite my tongue sometimes so you won’t have to hear me that much.”

    “And I told you, I need you to give me the name of this ex so I can kill him with my bare hands. Is very serious matter.”

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”

    Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.

    “…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.

    “Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”

    Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Look, I know I’m boring. And lame and… weird. I just… can you not say it? Every time? Or at least not every ten seconds.”

    And suddenly Ilya saw the way Shane was trying to fold in on himself. Like he wanted to hide the parts of his life he had just let Ilya see. Now it looked like he regretted letting Ilya in. Or he expected him to laugh. Or leave.

    He crossed the room.

    “Shane.”

    Shane shook his head once.

    “I’m sorry. Forget it.”

    “No,” Ilya said gently, crouching in front of him. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. I was teasing. I didn’t realize.” He paused, then said more firmly, “you’re not boring.”

    Shane scoffed under his breath.

    “I mean it,” Ilya said, ducking his head to try to catch his eye. “You’re the most specific person I’ve ever met. It’s fascinating. I love the way your brain works. And the way this house feels like you.”

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    A fluffy/smutty one shot set some time between Tampa and Boston in 2017 where Shane invites Ilya to spend the weekend with him in Montreal.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.”

    Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart.

    Shane Hollander
    Age: 27
    Height: 177.8cm
    Weight: 88.5Kg
    Temp: 36.6
    BP: 118/75

    -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo.

     

    -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane is unafraid (read: actually terrified) to say people who make out in public are disgusting. This goes for everyone, but it just so happens that he’s caught high-key judging a gay couple.

    Now everyone thinks he’s homophobic.

    Fuck his life.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Harris: Hi, Shane!
    Harris: This is Harris Drover.
    Harris: I got your number from Ilya.
    Harris: Sorry to bother you, but I had a question.
    Harris: I know you’re coming in to sign contracts tomorrow, and I had an idea for a social media thing to announce your signing, if you’d be up for it?

    Shane: Oh, yeah, okay.
    Shane: I’ll be there, so we can do whatever.
    Shane: Always happy to help the team with a little internet humiliation that’ll be around for decades.

    Harris: Perfect!
    Harris: I promise, I think you’ll really like this, though.
    Harris: No humiliation involved.
    Harris: The only caveat is, you can’t tell Ilya.

    Shane: Okay?
    Shane: Why?

    Harris: Well.
    Harris: Here’s what I’m thinking.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane was gay. That was the entire point of this whole thing. He was a man who loved another man. And he was a man

    He was a professional athlete, nearly six feet tall, just about 200 pounds. But for every single thing about him that he felt like served to qualify him as a man, it was like Ilya had somehow turned the dial up to eleven. 

    And Shane loved it. 

    or, five times that Shane is overwhelmed by his husband's masculinity and one time that Ilya realizes he is not the man of the house. 

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    27 Jun 2026

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