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    The more desperate you are, the easier it is to slip up, and then you lose more control, and you become even more desperate. It's a vicious cycle. The issue is, Hollander seems kind. And here’s the problem with kind people: when backed into a corner, they tend to hurt themselves instead of others.

    illegal gambling / underground fight club AU

    Shane has a background in boxing and needs to make a lot of money fast and Ilya isn't a gang leader, but he sure as hell seems like one sometimes.

    (angst and smut included)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Jamais Vu: The opposite of deja vu. The illusion that a familiar thing is being experienced for the first time.

    Or, When Shane gets hit on the ice, Ilya tries to go see him, but he's not allowed in. One year later, Ilya gets a text from 'Jane' with nothing but an address, an apology, and an invitation...

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as an alternate for freestyle swim events.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    They meet when they're just teenagers. They start fucking not too much longer after that. They also don't really allow themselves to get to know each other until much, much later.

    (In which your soulmate will one day say something that proves they understand you. Shane and Ilya don't exactly make a habit of talking.)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s catching his breath against Ilya’s neck when he feels a tingle on his arm, a sort of pinching feeling on his wrist, and he raises his hand in front of his eyes that blink to adjust to the newfound glow in the darkness.

    365:00:00

    All at once, Shane’s blood runs cold. The timer starts to tick down, a number going down with each minute that passes as he stares, and stares, and… stares.

    or, after saying each other’s first names, shane has a year left to live. and it’s all because of ilya rozanov.

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    08 Jun 2026