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  1. Public Bookmark 13

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    Dean’s life changes drastically twice in his childhood. The first time is at four, when his mother dies, leaving him and his brother with a father who’s consumed by anger and revenge. The second time is at twelve, when he presents as an Omega, proving that he is exactly what his father needs him to be, but not what he wants him to be.

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    19 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 45

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    Soon enough Dean will be dropping her off with her mom in Nevada and he’ll never have to take care of a pup ever again.

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    Badass Omega!Dean and kickass pup Claire on the road. Shit happens, including the arrival of an awkward alpha doctor Castiel, and it's all... great.

    (They're gonna kill a lot of bad people and then get a happily ever after.)

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    12 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 95

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    Dokja stumbled hard after colliding with someone broad and solid enough to feel like a wall. A very angry-smelling wall. His bag slipped from his shoulder and the contents scattering rather pathetically across the pavement.

    “Are you fucking blind? Watch where you’re going.”

    Well.

    Jokes on you. Because actually, *I am*.

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    12 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    The Winchesters fight time, a vengeful spirit, and a wind demon in order to save a little girl from the monster who's stalking her.

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    08 May 2026

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    Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.

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    "You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"

    Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.

    Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.

    "What?" Dean grits out.

    "I love you, too."

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    27 Apr 2026