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Ilya Rozanov's Guide to Reinforcing the Closet by pink_starfish
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Apr 2026
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“Are you… are you saying that you want to be in a relationship with Shane Hollander?” The room held a sort of tension, like everyone in it was holding their breath, waiting for Ilya to vehemently deny it.
The reporter had taken his words in the complete opposite way than Ilya had meant them, but he supposed he was too committed to stop now. “Of course not.”
“Of course.” The reporter parroted, laughing nervously.
“Obviously, we are already in a relationship.”
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In Ilya’s rookie season, he impulsively jokes about dating Shane to an invasive reporter. Then, he just… keeps doing it, since publicly announcing it enough times that everyone writes it off as a joke is a great way to hide a clandestine relationship.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
13 Jul 2026
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“-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.
Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.
“I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.
(ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
11 Jul 2026
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He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.
Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-
-only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.
(how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)
Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
11 Jul 2026
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“Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-
He needs to go.
“I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.
It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.
“No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.
It wheezes.
(how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
11 Jul 2026
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Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
But Shane is in a hospital.And Ilya is here.
He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.
“Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”
Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.
(canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)
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05 Jul 2026
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who will love a little sparrow by weeb_grass
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jun 2026
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Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.
Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.
Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.
Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
28 Jun 2026
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“Did I do something wrong?” Shane asks, his voice cracking on the last word. He detests being vulnerable and asking for reassurance, even from people he’s comfortable with. And he would probably describe this situation as literally anything but comfortable.
He bites his lip and hopes the blood he draws will distract him from the stinging in his eyes.
“No, Hollander,” Rozanov answers. “It was not you.”
“Okay, well, if it’s not me, will you at least look at me?” Shane snaps. “You don’t kiss me all night, except for that one time in that disgusting fucking bathroom, you don’t want to talk to me in bed, and now you won’t even look at me anymore. How am I supposed to think that that’s not about me? Do I really mean that fucking little to you?”
Or: What if Shane actually sends the text in Vegas?
Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
23 Jun 2026
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When he presses the button on the doorbell, he hears the digitally-produced ding-dong echo from inside. There is a tiny box halfway up the adjacent wall that immediately beeps and emits Shane’s voice.
“Hey, you can just leave it on the step, thanks.”
Ilya presses his nose into the digital doorbell, which he knows to also contain a camera, and says, “Shane.”
A pause.
“What the fuck.”
A brief cacophony of noise that Ilya can hear even from outside the house. The multiple successive thumps of something falling, Shane swearing loudly and the sound of what can only be a hockey game being paused on the television.
He opens the door to reveal that he is nap-rumpled, wearing two pairs of socks and carrying a child in his arms. The only really surprising part is that the socks don’t match, though the child is interesting.Ilya takes an impromptu trip to Montreal. There are unforeseen consequences.
Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
23 Jun 2026
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Kim Mingyu is content being Jeon Wonwoo's best friend. Or at least, that's what he tells himself. For a decade, Mingyu has carefully hidden his not-so-platonic feelings, and the intense burn of longing has dulled to a manageable smolder. He's convinced himself that even just dreaming of something more would put too much at risk.
But Mingyu isn't the only one with a secret. Wonwoo is the sole omega in the group of thirteen—a truth he's always kept concealed from the public.
When a dire situation arises, the boundaries between friendship and something more begin to blur and Mingyu's carefully controlled feelings reignite into a blaze, just as the threat of Wonwoo's secret being exposed grows. Facing new challenges and uncharted emotions, Mingyu and Wonwoo must confront their deepest fears and make choices that could change their relationship (and their lives) forever.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
22 Jun 2026
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Isn’t It Boatmantic? by CaptainKenway
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Apr 2026
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People joined yachting crews for the money and travel. People joined Below Deck because, in Shane’s case, they made regrettable decisions. However, there was one bright side to this reality TV show mess—the chef.
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Shane and Ilya join the crew of Bravo’s Below Deck and are really gay about it
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- Part 1 of Below Deck AU
Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
18 Jun 2026
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black dog by delagauchetiere
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Apr 2026
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Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.
So. Not stealing.
But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?
Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.
Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.
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16 Jun 2026
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13 Jun 2026
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Married and Mic'd by CaptainKenway
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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Ilya is mic’d up for an Ottawa vs Montreal game much to his husband’s exasperation.
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- Part 2 of Mic'd Up
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
13 Jun 2026
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thank you, montreal by strwbrryfox
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Dec 2025
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Ilya took his face in his hands and smacked a kiss onto his cheek, making Shane laugh, which was probably the desired effect.
Harris left with his photos a few moments later, promising Ilya that they’d be seeing them all on the official Centaurs account soon.
“You should make caption, ‘Thank you, Montreal,’” Ilya called after him. “Tag the fuckers too!”
or, shane scores his first goal as a centaur, ilya is a very proud husband.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
11 Jun 2026
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on worldbearing and other matters of divinity by cloudhours
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
10 Oct 2025
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Mydei pins him down with firm hands and says, low and urgent, “Listen—the people think you can bear a child.”
Phainon blinks at him. Mydei waits for him to sputter, to laugh. To refute him and call the very notion ridiculous, and launch into an hours-long exposition on the sheer absurdity of such a statement.
His husband does none of that.
(In the wake of Era Nova, peace settles—but gossip does not. Especially when it involves divine conception and the Deliverer of Amphoreus.)
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- Part 1 of these halcyon days and nights
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
09 Jun 2026
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Shane reached out without thinking, his fingers brushing against the rough fabric of Ilya’s jacket sleeve.
Ilya flinched away. “Dun’ touch me!”
Shane blinked, thrown. “What the - ”
“I already have boyfriend!” Ilya declared, pulling his jacket around himself like a shield. “Are practically engaged!”
Shane just stared. “Ilya. It’s me.”
“Only my boyfriend may unwrap me.” Ilya announced. “Is respect.”
Ilya gets drunk and refuses to be touched by anyone except his boyfriend. Unfortunately for Shane, Ilya does not realize his boyfriend is the one taking him home.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
16 May 2026
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A reporter stepped forward. "Rozanov. Thoughts on Shane's new look?"
"The wolfcut is falling perfectly," Ilya explained. "Also, Shane had very good game tonight. But I could not appreciate properly because I was too busy thinking about how pretty he is."
On Twitter: Rozanov looking at Hollander’s wolfcut like it personally saved his life is my Roman Empire 🙏
When Shane grows his hair out into a wolf cut and starts tying it into a bun, Ilya becomes distracted on the ice, and very publicly on the internet.
Featuring: a viral hair tuck, a possessive tweet, and a team rule that exists solely because Ilya cannot behave.
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- Part 4 of This Is Why We Have Media Training
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
15 May 2026
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He’s standing across from Ilya in his kitchen. Their feet are almost touching, Ilya’s in black socks that Shane also has multiple pairs of, Shane’s in his favourite soft striped ones. The rain is getting louder outside, moving from a drizzle to a downpour. And Ilya is looking at him like he loves him.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
14 May 2026
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On the screen was perhaps the most confusing headline Shane had seen in all his years in the spotlight.
‘Is Montreal’s Shane Hollander Having an Illicit Love Affair with Boston’s Cliff Marlow?’
Shane blinked twice, his mind slamming to a halt as he read and re-read the words. “What the fuck?”
Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
14 May 2026
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Would they get into trouble with their own team over this? Probably.
Would it be worth it?
Abso-fucking-lutely.
“He’s doing it again,” Dykstra stage-whispered, pulling Ilya back to reality. “It’s getting weird.”
Bood nodded. “Yeah. How he actually managed to land Hollzy with that creepy smile is beyond me.”
Ilya snorted. “Fuck off, idiots.”
“Ah,” Wyatt made a cheerful noise. “He’s back! We missed you, Cap.”
“But we’d also appreciate it if you could stop grinning like a lunatic,” Chouinard said, pointing at Ilya’s face. “You look like you’re about to become the Metros’ worst nightmare.”
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For months, Shane has been treated like an outcast—branded a traitor by the city he once called home. Now he can’t wait to leave Montreal behind for good. Yet, determined to keep his dignity, he takes part in one final fan event to raise money for a children’s hospital.
On the surface, it’s simple enough. Fans exchange money for an autograph, a picture and a fleeting moment with their former hero—nothing Shane hasn’t done countless times over the past decade. This time, however, his final obligation to the team doesn’t end the way he expects.
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Bookmarked by Leomoon (starLSD)
13 May 2026