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    i have THOUGHTS about OLD MEN and it is BAD

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    the au in which they are all human and live together and are best friends and everything is okay

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  1. Public Bookmark 73

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    Nakamura has never believed Hirose could ever want him back, convincing himself that friendship is all he'll ever deserve. But while Nakamura keeps insisting he's nothing, Hirose is finally done letting him believe it.

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    19 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 18

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    You’ve grown here, laughed here, loved here. You’ve razed it to the ground. But it always comes back in the next cycle, another coded bit of data, just like you, just like every person here.

    “Are we even real, Mydeimos?”

    He seems furious, now. His hand reaches for yours, gripping it with force enough to bruise and slamming your palm into his chest. A heart beats there, but he’s dead, isn’t he? You are too, so why do your hearts still beat? “Do I feel real enough for you?” he asks. “After thirty-three million cycles, is there really anything to doubt?”
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    In which you are Phainon, and he is Mydei, and the weight of deliverance is no longer on your shoulders.

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    12 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 55

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    The radio blares to life when the car first starts, a too-cheerful song playing too loud, before Kurebayashi fumbles it off. After that she doesn't try to turn it back on, or start a conversation. All they have to accompany them is the motion of the car bumping along the road, the flash of streetlights throwing shadows across their faces - and Hikaru, who wants to shrivel up and die.

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    29 May 2026

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    He crosses his arms around his chest, hunching over himself. "So, um. Is it... real different than bein' in a human body?"

    It clicks at him again. There's an answering shiver in Yoshiki's ribs, a mix of fear and itchy curiosity. Against his better judgement he inches forward, lifting his hand into the space between them. The thing tracks his movements with a noiseless twitch.

    "Do you feel other things the same, too? Like... if I touch you, can you feel it?"

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    29 May 2026

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    “Hey, Indou!” someone from midfield shouted, laughing between breaths. “Careful—Tsujinaka’s takin’ pictures of ya like he’s in love or somethin’!”

    “Shut up,” Hikaru snapped, voice sharp. “Yoshiki ain’t gay.”

    “Damn bro, calm down,” someone muttered. “Didn’t know you were his bodyguard.”

    “Maybe he’s got you whipped,” another chimed. They erupted in laughter again.

    Hikaru kicked the ball hard. Too hard. It smacked into the fence with a metallic clang that made a few heads jerk up.

    “Knock that shit off,” Hikaru barked, shoving past a teammate. “I said he ain’t gay. Don’t fucking talk about him like that.”

    One wrong reaction shatters everything between them, leaving Hikaru wrestling with a fear he can’t name and Yoshiki trying to pretend he doesn't exist. What follows is a slow, aching unravel: avoidance, regret, the steady realization that losing Yoshiki hurts more than anything Hikaru was trying to protect himself from.

    A short, four-chapter "what if" story about bad timing, teenage feelings, and the clumsy way boys learn what it means to be truly honest with each other and themselves.

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    08 May 2026