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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    21 May 2026

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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    03 May 2026

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    Ilya has to get braces and other orthodontic appliances, Shane enjoys it more than he should.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    AU — The Centaurs’ plane crashes. No deaths are reported, and that should be a relief.

    Ilya survives. He just isn’t waking up.

    As Shane waits, the world continues on, and he’s forced to confront just how fragile their life truly is.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    “Why are you here?” Ilya asked, very quietly.
    It still felt like a slap.
    Shane must have let out a sound of some sort, because Ilya turned to look at him, finally.
    “Did not mean it like that,” Ilya said. “Just… surprised.”
    Shane shifted awkwardly from one foot to the next, as if he was suddenly coming to the realization that he had no right to be here at all. “I got a call from the hospital,” he explained. “They told me I’m your emergency contact.”
    “Sorry,” Ilya said, in such a quiet voice it was almost impossible to hear him. “I forgot to change it.”
    Shane could only frown. That did not make him any less confused. “I guess I just… I don’t understand why you put me down as your emergency contact in the first place. It’s not like we…”
    Ilya took a couple of deep breaths. It looked like they were painful. His eyes slid away from Shane, like he couldn’t bear to look at him. “Did not have anyone else,” he admitted, and now his voice was the smallest Shane had ever heard it, like Ilya was trying to disappear as the words left him. “I’m sorry.”

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    Or: Ilya has a car accident. Shane is his emergency contact... even though they're no longer seeing each other.

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    28 Mar 2026