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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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16 Jun 2026
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honey, tell me, are you good at staying still? by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Jun 2026
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Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.
He can just exist here.
Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.
(Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)
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15 Jun 2026
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hangin' off the buckle on your belt by dreamtiwasanarchitect
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Feb 2026
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He’s just about to light up when hears his own name:
“Ilya Rozanov?”
Ilya turns. The man approaching him is smiling as he approaches.
He’s a little awkward, Ilya thinks, then the man holds out his hand.
“Shane Hollander, I thought I should introduce myself.”
Total fucking dork.
Ilya shakes Hollander’s outstretched hand and resumes lighting his cigarette.
“Oh, um, I don’t think you’re supposed to smoke here,” Hollander says. He’s looking over Ilya’s shoulder, at the no smoking sign two feet away.
Ilya exhales. “Don’t worry. I brush my teeth before shoot.”
Hollander blushes, a baffling response considering that he’s probably going to have Ilya’s dick in his mouth within the hour. “I wasn’t, um. Thinking about that.”
He has freckles, Ilya notices. Shane Hollander has freckles. He has freckles and a pretty mouth and a bit of a baby face. God, they’re going to do numbers.
Shane and Ilya collide on the set of a porn shoot early in their careers. Things escalate from there.
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09 Jun 2026
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As the Romans Do by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
01 Jun 2026
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As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.
So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.
(He’s jealous.)
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06 Jun 2026
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“Y-you want me to be a girl?”
Ilya rubbed the base of one of his thumbs with the other. Seeing Ilya’s shyness so plainly made Shane’s nose twitch.
“No, not all the time,” Ilya said after a moment. “And not if you don’t want to. Never if you don’t want to. I just . . . I think about it, sometimes.”
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Ilya loves his life and his husband. But lately, he's found himself missing girls. Luckily, Shane is happy to indulge this fantasy.
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05 Jun 2026