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    Shane and Ilya are champions. They are partners, and they’re in it for life. And people are starting to notice.

    After being traumatically outed two years ago, Shane and Ilya's relationship and their lives have been fundamentally changed, and most days, Shane thinks that's a good thing. But sometimes, the pressure of being out, and the endless online speculation about #hollanov, and rumors running rampant through the NHL, and a new generation of rookies looking up to them, and the knowledge that everyone is relying on Shane Hollander to be perfect at all times—sometimes it's a lot.

    But Shane's dealing with it. Ilya seems happier than he's ever been, and Shane just needs to get his act together to support his husband. He can do that. He needs to, and he will, if he doesn't crack under the pressure first.

    They've got a second Stanley Cup to win, after all.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    SHANE: Lily.
    LILY: Hello
    SHANE: Dead to me.
    What the actual fuck?
    LILY: ??
    SHANE: what. The. Hell. Did. You. Do.
    LILY: ahh
    I am in trouble
    Yes?

     
    Or Ilya's teammates add "Jane" to the Boston WAG group chat in the height of their "no, we aren't falling in love, whatever do you mean" era (2014-2016-ish?).

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the hockey world; after a year of silence, he returns to the ice, playing better than ever, winning two Stanley Cups, getting an actress girlfriend, and having a son. All while he tries to ignore the man he left behind as their careers grow, driving them apart and closer.

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    Shane gets pregnant and hides it from Ilya for years, but as the connection between them grows, Ilya comes closer to finding out the truth.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander had three days before Ilya would clock in to make hospital admin’s life hell. He was coming on this journey with Ilya whether he wanted to or not. It was one of the (new) privileges of making Ilya’s nemeses list.

    Ilya grinned to himself as he stepped into the OR. Lap appy today, admin headache tomorrow.

    This was the life.

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    Or: AU where Shane Hollander is a diagnostic radiologist, and Ilya Rozanov is a trauma surgeon, and they fall in love in every universe, and as a bonus, maybe taking down administration in a hospital system

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s so high on painkillers it’s a wonder he can focus on anything at all, but his bruised eyes are alert and fixed on Shane. He’s still mumbling in Russian, voice slurred and so quiet that Shane can only catch snippets.

    “Dreamed of you,” Ilya murmurs, and all the breath in Shane’s lungs stutters out of him. “So beautiful, you’re... such a perfect mouth, and those freckles… fuck, I want…”

    “What’s he saying?” Mom asks.

    “Nothing,” Shane lies, too fast to be very convincing.

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    18 Jun 2026