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    Shane breathes in deep, a contented little sigh, and then pauses for another long time. Just slightly tensed, like he’s preparing himself for something, but Ilya doesn’t really have the chance to worry before he says, “I had…a good time tonight.”
    “Mm, was good night,” Ilya murmurs. Kisses hair, kisses eyebrow. “Nice dinner, nice weather.”
    “Yeah, it was nice,” Shane murmurs. He sighs, clears his throat. “Thank you for such a nice first date.”
    Ilya mouths first date to himself, mind running to figure out what that could mean in this context.
    Then Shane shifts and says, “I wasn’t sure what to expect when you asked me out.”
    Ah.

    Shane decides to play a game. Ilya is exactly where he wants to be.

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    12 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    love is stored in the roleplay

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    "Ilya's leaned across the railing with a cigarette in his hand. For a moment, they could be nineteen again. The whole of it all laid out before them, waiting to unfold.
    Then Ilya glances over at him, and it rushes passed. All of it—all the years and memories between them. Whenever he looks at Ilya these days, that first split second it feels like looking at someone he loves, someone he'll grow old with. Then his body remembers that's in the past now."

    Shane and Ilya, post divorce and attending one last MLH awards

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    10 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    idk if I can read this again (hurt my feelings too bad) but I don’t want to lose it so I’m bookmarking

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    Shane (to himself): This is great. I'm going to get a good grade in friends with benefits, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

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    When Shane sticks it out at Ilya's house, and the tuna meltdown doesn't happen, he still walks away confused about what Ilya actually WANTS from him. When an opportunity presents itself in the form of Rose Landry and a very thorough PR relationship contract, Shane decides to take advantage of it to show Ilya that he can be a totally chill and normal friend with benefits, and definitely isn't too attached.

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    07 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya sowing: haha fuck yeah!! yes!!
    Ilya reaping: well this fucking sucks. what the fuck

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    Shane tries to grab at the right words. "She's not - it's not that simple. Shane Hollander is me but it's also like - it's a thing people use to sell something. It's like a cardboard cutout of me."

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    04 Jul 2026

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    Shane’s Rage: the fic

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    Ilya’s fingers trace a feather-light path across Shane’s collarbone.

    “Or maybe,” Ilya says slowly. “You are jealous of her.”

    Shane twists, a token kind of struggle; Ilya hardly budges.

    “No,” Shane says.

    Ilya makes a thoughtful sound.

    “Are you sure? Marly is big, strong hockey player who played in Boston. Just your type.”

    “Fuck off,” Shane says, but it’s no good when his traitorous dick is obviously hard, positioned just where Ilya’s hips are resting on Shane’s own. Ilya grinds down, just a little, and Shane’s breath catches. Almost without thinking, he’s straining upwards, trying to get Ilya to kiss him. When their mouths are nearly close enough to touch, Ilya says —

    “You want me to tell you about it?”

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    5 times Ilya suggests someone for a fantasy threesome while they're fucking, and 1 time Shane does.

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    03 Jul 2026