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    “You are still you, yes?” Ilya repeated. “You are still slow hockey player with pretty freckles, yes?” It was a weak attempt at a joke, so Ilya shook it away and tried again. “You are still Shane, same person, same brain, yes?”

    Shane blinked up at him, thinking. Then, nodding slowly. “Mostly. Yeah. I don’t know about a name or anything yet, but—. Yeah. I’m still me.”

    “Then it does not matter.”
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    A trans Shane Hollander AU

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    23 Jun 2026

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    In between when Shane and Ilya return to their teams after getting benched and the start of the playoffs, there's still one more week of the regular season. During that week, there is therapy by proxy, a request for emotional support nudes, a romantic declaration about pizza toppings, a disagreement about who turned who gay and another disagreement about whether Montreal Voyageurs games are better than porn.

    Ilya: Reporter got my number and is asking what I think about parliament trying to ban conversion therapy
    Ilya: What the fuck is conversion therapy?

    Shane: No idea, maybe it's actually good my team won't let me talk to reporters

    Ilya: Am googling this is evil shit. Lucky you didn't know about this you would have tried to send yourself before I finished converting you to my dick

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    18 Jun 2026

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    In a hotel room their first year playing together for Ottawa, Shane and Ilya talk about gay rookies and bad threesomes and how to not sound like you're trying to hook up with Shane's mom.

    "I get that you're trying to say something that's actually kind of sweet, but I cannot emphasize enough how much it sounds like you were trying to hook up with my fucking mom. Also, my mom doesn't just like you, my mom loves you. You know that."

    "Sure, okay, now. But back then? I was very happy to settle for just like. You know how it is with Hollanders. You have to hook up with them for a while before the feelings start to grow."

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Hello! This is my first post, although I am a frequent visitor to this subreddit and have been for years. I have loved hockey all my life, but my real guilty pleasure is staying on top of all the behind the scenes gossip. As you can imagine, Scott Hunter kissing his boyfriend on the ice was a huge day for me!

    I recently noticed something with Ilya Rozanov that I don’t think many other people have, and I decided to finally post about it here to see if anyone else shares my opinion. Every hockey fan I’ve talked to in my real life has brushed it off because Rozanov is known as such a womanizer, but I genuinely think he’s in some kind of serious long-term relationship.


    Or the year before Ilya transfers to Ottawa, Shane and Ilya learn three things. Creating a charity is a fuck ton of work, coming out isn’t something you do just once, and the whole world seems to think Ilya Rozanov is in a committed relationship.

    Oh, and Ilya is addicted to Reddit hockey gossip.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    “I want to fuck you before my dick stops working.”

    “You know that’s a possible side effect, right? We don’t know that’s gonna happen.”

    “Mm. If I expect it I will not be disappointed.”

    “If it does, we’ll figure something out. And—“

    “A broken dick is better than a broken brain.”

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    or; ilya takes medication and he can't come like he usually does so they try something new. also emotions and tenderness and love.

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    05 Jun 2026