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    Benefits of Apathy by

    Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)  

    27 Apr 2026

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    What was the importance of a soulmate, to someone without a soul? If Dean swore this version of Sam was not his brother, despite all the evidence, then why continue to act like he was?

    “You don’t have to protect me anymore.” Sam said, matter of fact.

    Broad shoulders went still, Dean’s back rigid and stiff. “Yes I do.”

     

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    Tucked away in the bathroom that morning, Sam resolved he still couldn’t fully recognize himself. He practiced a smile in the mirror, squinted his eyes and scrunched his nose, the way he naturally used to.

    With everything stripped away, no sense of self, Sam realized that there was nothing else left inside.

     

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    TLDR; Sam sees the world a little differently without a soul.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    The Sun Will Shine on Us Again by

    Fandoms: Supernatural  

    28 Nov 2021

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    “They asked me questions all day and night. And they kept asking where you were. And I said—said that you were dead. And they didn’t believe me.” Sam kept looking at the sunlight marching its way across the floor, a stretching beam of rectangular light. Sam’s jaw worked and tears glistened in his eyes. “The sun came up. It only came up because you were dead, and they still didn’t believe me.”

    Tag/missing scene to 12x02. Getting Sam away from the Brits is just step one. Patching him up physically: step two. Patching him up mentally: every step that follows. Lucky for him, Dean has quite a bit of experience with both butterfly bandages and breakdowns.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Thunder by

    Fandoms: Supernatural  

    08 Jul 2020

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    Ever since the Cage, Sam has some trouble with thunderstorms. Luckily, Dean is there to help.

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    24 Nov 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 57

    i'll take a quiet life by

    Fandoms: ER (TV 1994)  

    02 Mar 2026

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    he takes the pills during the MVA.
    doesn't throw them up. doesn't tell anyone.
    just swallows it down like it's nothing - like he hasn't done this before.

    (he has. he knows exactly how this ends. but that doesn't stop him.)

    starts at 7x05 with a major canon divergence from 7x09.
    slow collapse. quiet relapse.
    painkillers, guilt, and the kind of unraveling you can hide under your scrubs.

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    01 Aug 2025

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    Help Me by

    Fandoms: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020)  

    18 Mar 2025

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    After a bad call, TK faces urges he hasn't come face to face with since Sadie. When he can't find the answers he needs from his husband and his home, he falls down a rabbit hole he can't get out of alone. Will this make or break them?

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    01 Aug 2025