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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    In this exclusive profile, spend the day on a lakeshore in Ottawa. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are finally ready to introduce themselves.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    “Well, you are getting something from me. Two things actually: Life-changing sex skills and an opportunity to fuck me—”

    “—Oh, give me a break—”

    “—But,” Ilya says. “What am I getting out of this?”

    “The opportunity to f-fuck me,” Hollander snaps, and yeah, a pretty fair point.

    ilya is failing a class, shane is failing at exploring his sexuality. despite their seven-year-long animosity on the ice, they turn to each other for guidance. a deal is struck.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    27 Jan 2026