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    Hen stares at Buck for a long moment, then turns on her heel to walk upstairs. “Chim! Did you know that Peanut is a human child and not a small animal?”
    “Buck’s Peanut?” Chim calls back, leaning over the railing. “No? Is she not a dog?”
    “No!” Buck replies. “She’s a preschooler!”

     

    OR: At 22, Buck got one of his hookups pregnant and decided to keep the baby himself rather than let her be put up for adoption. At 26, he joined the 118. You know the rest, right?

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Years before joining the 118, Buck’s travels take him to El Paso, where he meets Christopher. When Eddie comes back from Afghanistan and Shannon leaves, Buck ends up staying. As bills pile up, the best move is for them to get married, just for convenience, they’ll divorce when Eddie comes back from his re-enlistment.

    Then Eddie gets injured and it’s just easier to stay married for a little longer, while Buck gets started at the 118. However, Buck doesn’t mention his ‘husband’ and kid, not feeling like they’re his to keep. When Eddie gets the offer from Bobby, they decide to lie and pretend they don’t know each other, so they can work together.

    The whole lie gets out of hand as feelings start to become real, until it all comes to a head in the aftermath of the fire engine explosion.

     

    AKA: Secret marriage of convenience buddie slow burn AU, where Buck and Eddie have been married for years so Buck could adopt Chris and no one at the 118 knows.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Buck knows it’s not sustainable by the fourth night, when he wakes up sweating and unable to breathe, one hand clutching his ribs where she’d stuck him the first time with the cattle prod and the other reaching to turn on the lamp at his bedside.

    It’s been one week since he got back, so four sleepless nights puts him firmly in the "more bad than good" territory. What the hell is he supposed to do about all this shit? He alluded to therapy when he talked with Eddie at work the other day, but he’s not going to do that. Therapy is totally hit or miss for him. He’s been to two therapists, one was a miss, one a hit, which means he’s due for another miss.

    He’s sure as hell not going to talk to Maddie about it, because that’d be, like, super triggering or something. She just got over her own kidnapping a few years ago. And who else, Eddie? Eddie had a traumatic experience in New Mexico as well; he doesn’t need to be responsible for Buck’s too.

    But the fact of the matter is, something’s got to change. So, Buck decides to start self-medicating.

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    or canon compliant up until s9ep14 (DIY), after that it's just angst and hurt and maybe occasional comfort

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    02 Jun 2026

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    He realizes it right before everything goes to shit. He’s just standing there in the loft and Eddie’s handing him Christopher’s backpack and talking about “he’s not that fast” and “order pizza” and Buck sort of stares at him—partly in shock, partly in reverence—and he thinks "I love you." He shoves it down immediately, of course, as far down as it’ll go, but the fact of the matter is, it’s there somewhere, floating around inside of him. He can’t get rid of it now.

    Not that it matters all that much, though, because there’s the whole quitting thing and the lawsuit thing and the argument in the grocery store and by the time he’s given his (re)start date he knows; he well and truly fucked up.

     
    or: another classic post-lawsuit fic. Angst, hurt, some comfort, more angst, more comfort.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Eddie Diaz realizes he’s bisexual at approximately 11:30 PM.

    By 9:14 AM the next morning, he has:
    - Dumped his girlfriend,
    - Proposed marriage to Buck,
    _ Emotionally compromised an entire fire engine,
    - Held Buck hostage in radiology, and
    - Turned a Level 1 Trauma Center into a live studio audience.

    The thing is, Buck would’ve handled this better if Eddie had:
    - NOT proposed marriage in the middle of a gas leak,
    - NOT immediately started flirting like a menace,
    - NOT weaponized ER paperwork,
    - NOT trapped him in a CT room,
    - NOT weaponized eye contact,
    - NOT somehow become hotter in a hospital gown, and
    - NOT had an entire emergency department acting as witnesses.

    Evan Buckley, is, in a word, doomed.

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    31 May 2026