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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    I am in hell, Ilya thinks. He's awkwardly hard in his cup and layers of gear. He can't focus. How the fuck is Hollander functioning like this? Is he actually so gifted at hockey that he can play at this level and still have space to let the sex demon in his brain run rampant? Is this what he's like all the time? (Now with bonus ch 2!)

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane measured out his loosely packed protein powder, using the back of the knife to scrape the excess off the cup back into the container—careful to not add too much. A glint of light reflected off the knife, catching his eye. He stared at the silvery surface, realizing how long it had been since he looked at himself in the mirror.

    He punched the button on the blender, letting the harsh, abrasive sound pull him out of his thoughts. The ingredients blended together until they turned into the same, bland, expected color as as it did every morning, perfectly under his control.

    He brought it to his lips carefully, trying to ignore the sudden tightness in his chest. When it tasted exactly like it did the day before, he sighed in relief, hungrily drinking it down, feeling completely free. This was going to work.

    He was always going to know exactly what he was eating.

    OR: Shane Hollander starts his performance diet after Dallas Kent puts something into his drink. With training season starting for his first season in Ottawa, it's more important than ever that he feels in control. How else will he face Troy Barret every day?

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    27 May 2026

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    "Sometimes, when Shane Hollander hears a sound, it gets stuck in his brain."

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    While at the cottage, Shane starts to relax in a way that embarrasses him. Ilya refuses to let Shane be ashamed.

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    20 May 2026

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    ...I guess I should just say it. I was wondering if you'd—”

    “I think we should stop seeing each other.”

    “—like to come to my cottage this summer.”

    The plate slips from Shane's hand and shatters on the kitchen floor.

    Or: Shane doesn't get injured that night Montreal plays Boston. Ilya follows through on his plan to break things off with him. Well, he tries, at least.

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    07 May 2026