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    lil nct (mostly markhyuck) pieces as i try to gear myself up to write a full fic of them!

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    forever, we are young,
    even when i fall and hurt myself,
    i keep running toward my dream.

    [epilogue: young forever - bts]

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    The adventures of cop!binnie and his mafia boyfriends.

    I cannot breathe without you being right by my side.
    So can you please come over closer, hold me tight, right now.

    — Stay Kids, 'Red Lights (강박)'

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    “What did I,” his throat clicks, swallowing harshly around the tears that he has refused to allow and fall. “What did I do wrong?”

    Mortification feels like fingers wrapped tightly around his throat, tucking himself closely against the wall and too afraid to even look Rozanov in the eye. There’s a long beat of silence where Shane can practically feel his heart climb into his mouth, his chest aching with a relentless thud. 

    “Hollander.” He can’t read Rozanov’s tone even on his better days, quiet and short of breath. 

    Shane wishes that he could dissolve into the floorboards, eyes squeezed shut and a spike of shuddering cold working its way through him.

     

    Or, Shane drops hard and fast after their hook-up in Vegas. Ilya takes care of him.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    It had been a few years since he’d felt like this after fucking someone, but it wasn’t the first time. It was the first time he’d felt like this after fucking Hollander, though. At first, it was always like this – a feeling of disgust and humiliation curling inside of him when whoever he’d been with left the moment they were done. He was naive back then, dumbly wishing that he could hold his hookups afterwards for just a moment so he felt like he was more than just a body; Hollander had always seemed to cling to him, had always sought out Ilya’s touch like he needed it to breathe. This time, though, Hollander hadn’t reached out for him once, hadn’t brushed his hand across Ilya’s arm or pouted his way into a kiss. He hadn’t even wanted to show off at first, and the thought that he’d hurt Hollander was swirling in his gut and Ilya felt like he was going to puke.

    or ilya's ep2 domdrop we all saw happen

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    29 Jun 2026

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    And oh, Ilya was a weak, weak man.

    Because Shane had clearly gotten the wrong advice from someone along the line.

    And as his RA, his mentor and guide in the first year of Shane's college career, he was meant to correct that. Steer his charge clear of such horrible, terrible ideas as asking their “straight” RA to teach them how to kiss behind their boyfriend's back. Say no, malysh, you really don't need to worry about this, your first kiss should be with someone you love and trust and really want to kiss.

    “Okay,” he said, instead, and thought that at least he wasn't going to be sent back to Russia.

    He was going to be sent straight to hell.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane is used to feeling fuzzy with Rozanov. Like he’s floating higher, higher, higher. But this - this isn’t that.

    Shane isn’t floating, he’s falling. Sinking down, down, down below, into darkness. It feels like there are waves crashing over his head, cold and sharp like needles against his skin, and when he does manage to breach the surface for a moment, he’s met with thick fog and a starless sky. It feels sort of like a concussion, but not. There’s no pain, just…haziness. Just a gaping, empty feeling, right in the centre of his chest.

    (Or, Vegas rewritten.)

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Dom wasn't sure what it would be like entering that room, the control he had to put into place to keep himself from attacking that man.

    "You’re not a cop," he said the moment Dom walked into the room.

    "No," Dom shook his head. "There's one in my family though, an important person that we all love, and can't lose."

    The man's eyes lit up in surprise, "you’re him."

    Dom turned to face the guy, "him who?"

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    26 Jun 2026