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    Shane crosses the room and grabs a chair from the corner, dragging it into the center of the room.

    Right next to the foot of the bed.

    He pats the back of the chair, making sure to keep his expression neutral. “Sit,” he instructs, sounding more confident than he feels.

    Ilya raises an eyebrow but gets to his feet. “You do not want me on the bed?” He asks, sounding more than a little confused.

    “No,” Shane replies simply, patting the chair again.

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    Or: When Ilya shows up unexpectedly at his door, Shane finally gets sweet revenge for Las Vegas.

    Or or: They didn’t even kiss, and Shane takes that personally.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “I’m good,” he says casually, pausing to glance at Ilya over his shoulder. “Can I get back to it, or did you need something?”

    Shane raises an eyebrow and waits. Ilya runs a frustrated hand through his curls. “Fuck,” he whispers, his voice more desperate than Shane’s ever heard it. Full of desire and heat and something too raw to examine closer. “I need you, Hollander, okay? Is that what you want to fucking hear?”

    “Yes,” Shane whispers. "That's what I wanted to fucking hear."

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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    It was at that moment, with dawning horror, that all his concerns coalesced, The theoretical stranger online, who would take advantage of Shane’s sweet, pliable kindness, his perfect submission, and ruin it with cruelty, had almost been him.

    No. No no no. He would make a study of kissing Shane. A hobby. A lifestyle.

    The absurdity of Shane feeling unwanted almost made him laugh. Want was the singular feeling he had about Shane that emerged with perfect clarity, he wanted him, kissed him, petted him so much he worried that their first time had been more making love than fucking, panicking that he would be called out and abandoned for it. Imagine his delight when the opposite turned out to be the case.

    No, Shane had said. Don’t hold back. That thing you hate about yourself? That you drag into a back alley and strangle but just won’t die? I need it, actually. Give it to me.

    Gladly.

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    The works are unrelated because I love digging at the same fucking thing 5000000 times

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Do you have a wife, Mr. Higgins?”

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    Wyatt’s gaze shot up and it was like one of those moments in a fucking movie or something.

    Because the person bursting through the door like an absolute tornado at two in the morning was Shane Hollander. The man looked sweaty. And breathless. And panicked. No, haunted. His eyes were wide and tortured, chest heaving like he’d run here from Canada.

    What was he doing here in Tampa and not in Canada?

    Oh. OH. Oh shit.

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    **Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game - Canon-Divergence**

    What if when the Centaurs plane trouble occurred, Shane immediately jumped on a flight to Tampa?

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    06 Jun 2026

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    ↳ ☑️@TroyBarrett: I…. am so fucking gay. (Fellas is it weird to say your teammates are hot? Whatever, objectively my teammates are hot).

    ↳ ☑️@ScottHunterOfficial: I am also so so gay wow.

    ↳ ☑️@rozanov81: EVERYBODY LOOK RIGHT NOW!! BORING OLD SCOTT HUNTER SAID I AM HOT ON THE INTERNET!!

    ↳ ☑️@ScottHunterOfficial: I take it back. Only your husband is hot.

    ↳ ☑️@rozanov81: I will kill you.

    ↳ @KipSmoothieBoy: we are looking (mostly) respectfully I swear!!

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    Shane Hollander accidentally comes out to his hockey team after years of hiding his sexuality behind carefully crafted personas and unfinished coming out speeches. As the Metros slowly begin icing him out on and off the ice, Shane spirals between rage, grief, and self-discovery—while Ilya refuses to let him forget exactly who he is.

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    31 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    “I’ve survived playoff hockey in Philadelphia, so I’ll probably survive heterosexual disappointment, too.”