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Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.
But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”
—you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—
So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.
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23 Jun 2026
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Six weeks post-lawsuit, Buck is still on the outs with the team and plans to leave. Right before he can, he's allowed to go out on a call that changes his plans. Bobby can't stop the fire he started.
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19 Jun 2026
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When he was 26, Buck had his first genuinely transformative relationship. She was smart, kind and more mature than him. She looked at him and it made him feel like maybe he mattered.
When she told him she needed to go find herself, he promised to wait.He waited for months, living like a ghost in her abandoned home, before finally walking away, humiliated and abandoned, finally realising the love he'd felt had been one-sided.
All of this to say, Evan Buckley had never been good at knowing when to let go of things.
So when Eddie Diaz told him on a chilly Friday afternoon that he had put his house on the market and started packing, Buck told himself that this time, he wasn't going to cling to someone trying to leave him behind. This time, Buck would understand what rejection looked like, and he would let someone he loved walk away with dignity.
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Eddie moves to El Paso a month before Christmas. Buck goes a little bit insane about it.
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12 Jun 2026
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The Frontier is a good truck. He knows that. Reliable, practical, decent on gas for its size — Buck had done research before he bought it, had shown Eddie a spreadsheet, an actual spreadsheet, color-coded, and Eddie had looked at it and then looked at Buck and thought something very specific that he hadn’t been ready to name yet either. That was before. This is after. The point is; the truck is good.
But it’s not Buck.
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Eddie Diaz restores a Jeep for Buck for their One Year Anniversary
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30 May 2026
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Realistically, Eddie has too much stuff anyway.
It makes sense to get rid of a few things.
Spring cleaning, or whatever it's called.
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Or: Eddie and Chris speedrun a yard sale for a good cause.Bookmarked by eshickman0
25 May 2026