emotionallyregressing



Recent works

Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Ilya Rozanov,” Shane repeats slowly, letting himself taste the words. He grins. “Wow. You’re, like, a really good player. How come you’re in Canada for summer camp? Is that weird to ask? Sorry if that’s weird. I just meant-”

    Shane is cut off by a hand on his mouth. He flushes.

    “Too fast,” Ilya says. “My English… not good.”

    “Sorry,” Shane mumbles into Ilya’s hand. Ilya grins and shakes his head, curls dancing, as he pulls his hand away.

    “Is okay. Slow words. Okay?”

    This year marks thirteen year Shane Hollander's third summer at Coach Marakov's elite hockey training camp. In attendance for the first time: Ilya Rozanov, visiting from Russia. Shane isn't the most sociable, and Ilya's English isn't the greatest, yet the unlikely duo soon become the best of friends.

    It's just one summer, but it makes a world of difference.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,769
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,045
    Kudos:
    27,027
    Bookmarks:
    6,589
    Hits:
    196,929

    12 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya Rozanov is the thorn in Shane's side. He's rude, cocky, stressfully perceptive, and his stats are the only ones better than Shane's in the whole OUA. Even worse, they play on the same team, and the only person who might beat Shane out for the C next year is Rozanov.

    Ilya and Shane are so at odds they can't even manage to complete a stupid challenge at Playoff Camp without making fools of themselves and, according to Hazy, getting cursed.

    It's frustrating and embarrassing, until it becomes clear that the curse is very very real and it becomes horrifying instead. For the next six weeks (at least) Shane is stuck by Ilya's side, unable to go more than a few feet away without unbearable pain. 

    Now, they somehow have to pull off going to class, winning the playoffs, and not killing each other, not to mention keeping their secret from their friends and teammates.

    Shane is so fucked.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    20,853
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    110
    Kudos:
    2,714
    Bookmarks:
    695
    Hits:
    25,867

    26 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    "It was nothing, Ilya. Don't worry about it."

    "Ah," Ilya said, and something like understanding crossed his face. "Was about us, then."

    Shane pressed his forehead to Ilya's neck. Of course Shane couldn't just slip this by, of course he would be figured out. He wrapped Ilya up in a hug and moved his hand up and down his back, in a way that he hoped said it doesn't matter.

    "He just–after he checked me, I called him a dick, and then he said I'd need my big scary Russian husband to protect me. And then he called you a name, and…"

    Shane didn't know how to finish that sentence, so he let it trail off. And it felt so unfair. And I got more angry than I had any reason to. And I hate that I can't go one game without my sex life being brought up in some way. And it's happened a million other times, so why should I have cared on this one specific occasion?

    Over the course of the first half of his fifth season on the Centaurs, Shane considers retirement, homophobia, his public life, family, and his legacy. He also gets a tooth knocked out, visits the beach, and is repeatedly pissed off by how hot his husband is.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    23,737
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Collections:
    6
    Comments:
    263
    Kudos:
    6,875
    Bookmarks:
    1,582
    Hits:
    94,374

    07 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane Hollander is the number two overall NHL draft pick and a newly minted Montreal Voyageur. He’s also laser focused on his goals: being the best by beating the best. For him, this means a continued rivalry with number one draft pick—and new Ottawa Centaur—Ilya Rozanov. But when a problem with Rozanov’s immigration paperwork threatens his future in the NHL, what does that mean for Shane’s own career? He can’t risk finding out…so they get married. Just for immigration. A fast, practical, mutually beneficial solution.

    No one will ever suspect, let alone find out, that the NHL’s greatest rivals are secretly married. And there’s certainly no risk of feelings getting involved. They have a game plan.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    64,024
    Chapters:
    16/16
    Comments:
    2,202
    Kudos:
    32,413
    Bookmarks:
    10,528
    Hits:
    720,515

    20 Dec 2025

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    The road to the Stanley Cup is fraught with expectations, injuries, and worst of all, conversations about feelings.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,878
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    410
    Kudos:
    8,744
    Bookmarks:
    1,534
    Hits:
    73,980

    15 Dec 2025