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    Sam angst fics I LOVE SAM SO MUCH AUGHHH

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    All my Jax fics (because there will be a lot)

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    All of my Cas angst fics. Basically just a mix of projection and delving into his character for the purpose of angst (I love Cas so much so naturally I make him suffer in fanfic)

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  1. Public Bookmark 14

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    "Yeah, right—" Dean begins but pauses with wide eyes when Cas presses his index and middle fingers on Sam's forehead and sends him lying unconscious on his right side. He sprints up, "Cas, what the hell?"

    Cas stares at Sam, deeply tangled in guilt, "He needs sleep. While I had healed him whole in the ward, he should still sleep." He looks up, "Don't worry, he won't have any dreams. I made sure of that."

    Dean's shoulders slump but his eyes remain hard. "Kid can't live like that forever. Cas, if my brother dies because of your stupidity..." Dean pauses, inhaling patience from the air.

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    Cas doesn't take Sam's cage trauma.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    he couldn’t save his mom. he couldn’t save nina. he couldn’t save his brother. Now, Ed’s only goal was to atone for his failures by restoring Al’s body.
    but edward elric was drowning. monsters lurked within his mind that threatened to drag him under. the monsters that watched him beneath central didn’t like how close he and his brother had gotten to knowing the truth of the philosopher’s stone.
    edward elric was drowning, and he was quickly running out of air.

    Or:
    An exploration into how the story changes if Edward Elric was actually traumatized by the plot, and the homunculi were a little more pointed in keeping the Elric brothers on a leash.

    slow updates; not abandoned!

     

    now with a playlist!

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    11 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 23

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    He inhaled and instantly started coughing. The rough feel around his throat made his eyes water and bend over hacking up a lung.

    After he recovered from that he tried again, and again, and again, until he had the hang of it. He was a quick learner after all, so how hard could smoking even be?

    As he inhaled another time, the smoke curled around his mouth, giving a whitish puff of clouds before being sucked in again then exhaled. He was basically already done the ’cigarette’ and mushed it down, away from his mother grave. The lit end giving off a rebelling last shine before diminishing into ash.

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    Edward tried smoking once when he was little and ever since then he couldn’t stop.

    (+ a little PLATONIC Roy/ed)

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    10 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 42

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    Soon after the State Alchemy Exam, Ed begins to hear a voice in his head--a voice that sounds just like his, but most certainly does not belong to him.

    It turns out that Al's might not have been the only soul Ed pulled through the Gate.

    Updates (hopefully) every Sunday

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    10 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 93

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    It’s been a month since Jax and Pomni’s argument during the gun adventure and just a measly 3 days since everyone was tricked into thinking they could actually escape, and the tension hasn’t faded—in fact it’s festered. He keeps his mind locked down, barely holding it together, but Caine’s little “escape” trick only made things worse. Now the illusion lingers, twisting his thoughts, blurring what’s real and what isn’t.

    Deep down, he’s scared. Deep down, he cares. But admitting that would mean tearing down the walls he’s spent so long building.

    …unless they’re already starting to crack.

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    06 Jun 2026