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    There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.

    or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.

    Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.

    It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander gets hit on the ice and has to be brought to the hospital.

    This has happened before, and Ilya was there.

    He is there this time as well, but on the same team as his husband. This time, everybody knows it’s the love of his life unconscious on the ice.

    It doesn’t change anything.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Then like an anomaly in one of his datasets, a green OPEN tag appears next to one of the restaurants. Shane squints his eyes, having difficulty seeing properly without his glasses.

    Irina's Kitchen
    4.02 stars
    3 reviews

    Shane doesn't bother reading them. He taps on the website and waits for it to load. Only to be met with error.

    Sighing he exits the page and keeps on scrolling. Nothing that is open catches his interest and the rest are closed. He's wondering how stale celery would taste dipped in pickle juice when his eyes land on Irina's Kitchen once more.

    There's a phone number under the address. Shane bites his lower lip and wonders if he should call.

    A woman with an accented voice picks up after the 5th ring.

    “Hello?”

    “Uh, hey, are you guys still open?”

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya finally found him, Shane sat with his legs tucked into his chest, arms looped around his calves. His head was angled towards the wind and his gaze–

    It was cold, vacant.

    As if he’d died just before Ilya showed up. A dwindling flame frozen in time and the world had yet to catch up. It felt too familiar to a scene two decades ago. Ilya’d been so excited to show her something, but the what had slipped from his mind years ago, replaced with gaunt eyes and pale skin.

    “Moy solnyshko?” Ilya said. He wasn’t sure if the words had enough weight to land audibly with his mind drifting elsewhere. Shane didn’t even stir. His mother hadn’t either. He lurched forward, fingers clasped around Shane’s shoulder. “Shane–”

    Shane turned towards him owlishly, blinking. His eyebrows lifted a beat after.

    “Ilya,” Shane exhaled, a tired smile tugging at his lips. “When did you get here?”

     

    Or, Ilya notices a change within Shane. (Ilya's perspective throughout To my dearest.)

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    18 Jun 2026