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    14 Jun 2026

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    Welcome to the Ultimate Game.

    If you’re looking for a chronicle of redemption or, worse yet, a fairy tale ending with a kiss under the snow, you’ve walked into the wrong locker room. This is the story of a sabotage.

    For ten years, the hockey world has feasted on the rivalry between two captains with the same hunger one brings to a public execution. And us? We served them the blood on a silver platter, while in the shadows of hotel rooms in Montreal or Boston, we exchanged fluids and secrets with the precision of two spies in enemy territory.

    They believe the ice is a sanctuary of heterosexual secrets. They don’t realize that while they were betting on our next elbow to the face, they were witnessing a long, violent decade of foreplay.

    Now, it’s time for El Plan.

    Shane is the butterfly flapping its wings on an underwear billboard. I am the tornado about to level the entire NHL.

    Grab your popcorn. It’s going to be a beautiful massacre.

    My name is Ilya Rozanov, and you can thank me later.

    Or: how Shane and Ilya gaslit the entire world by officially "starting to date" in 2020.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    10 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 29

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    Shane Hollander plays piano. Ilya Rozanov fixes things.

    Together they build a life above a shop, filling a cramped apartment with sheet music, repaired furniture, unfinished shelves, and enough love to make the future feel inevitable.
    Then war arrives, Ilya is reassigned first- Temporary, they tell him.
    Shane knows better, yet neither of them manages to say a proper goodbye.

    The years that follow are shaped by ration books and radio broadcasts, newspaper headlines and rumors that travel farther than the truth, and the slow terrible distance that grows when two people are left alone with their worst assumptions for long enough.

    Somewhere between home and war, two men who once knew each other better than anyone begin building their entire lives around things that were never true.

     

    Or: two deeply intelligent men spend the better part of a decade being catastrophically in love and aggressively angstily misunderstanding the situation.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    When Shane reluctantly agreed to kick off his MLH career with a photoshoot, he imagined, somewhat vaguely, a hockey uniform and some dramatic lighting on the rink. Shoot a few pucks. Pose intensely. That kind of thing.

    The marketing agency, apparently, had other ideas.

    A plane flight gone wrong, a desperate crash landing, and suddenly hockey’s two brightest young stars find themselves stranded in the heart of the Canadian wilderness. With no way home and no rescue coming, they only have one hope for survival -- each other.

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    05 Jun 2026