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    The first time Felix slept with Sylvain wasn’t anything romantic. It wasn’t a curious high school hookup or a drunken college fling, wasn’t the inevitable culmination of their decades-long friendship, following some heartfelt confession where everything was understood and forgiven. It happened five years ago when they were already well into their twenties on the couch in Sylvain’s apartment: Felix, three months from his brother’s death, and Sylvain, on the verge of being disowned by his family after a self-destructive bender.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Felix watched as Dimitri gathered up his papers, shuffling them slowly, absently. Something was wrong. There was something he wasn’t telling him. “What else did Sylvain say?”

    The silence lasted a second too long. "He said —" Dimitri stopped, hesitating for another excruciating moment, before he lifted his head to meet Felix’s gaze. “He said he was getting married.”

    Felix stared at him, unable to even muster up anger at the sight of pity on Dimitri’s face. It felt as though a sudden wind had blown over him, extinguishing the growing flicker of hope he had pretended he didn’t have. “Oh,” was all he managed to push out of his throat.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    The realization of how desperately Felix wants to see Sylvain in this moment, right now, as he's bruising his shoulder against yet another unmovable door, how much he needs to find him breathing, needs to find him here, needs to find him unburied, hammers at the walls of Felix's awareness like it means to break them. He's been ignoring for months now, with wild success, the incoming sucker punch that is the magnitude of Sylvain’s importance to him. If he never had time for it at the Academy, he certainly didn't have time for it at war. Edelgard and her armies were bearing down. He would deal with it later. Tomorrow. Soon.

    It's now.

    (After the taking of Fhirdiad, Felix can't find Sylvain.)

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    15 Jun 2026

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    “Not without me,” Sylvain says quietly. “Don’t go where I can’t follow, Felix.”
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    10 Jun 2026

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    “And you?” Sylvain asked, light in the air, heavy on his tongue. “Do I have your respect, Felix?”

    “Sometimes I think you jeopardize it for fun.”

    Sylvain’s turn to sigh. “Can’t we ever just have a regular hello, Felix dear? Hello,” he said in demonstration, “I’m terribly fucking glad to see you.”

    It takes Sylvain and Felix half the war to get on the same page.

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