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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Ronan never actually proposes. Adam doesn't technically say yes. If they wind up married Adam is going to count it as a freaking miracle.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is sipping a cappuccino and watching Shane do very perverted yoga when he realizes that he doesn’t want to die.

    It’s a dumb series of thoughts. He sees Shane bend over, neatly folding himself into a hunchback as his hands flatten by his feet, and Ilya thinks, I bet he’s going to love it when we’re old and grey and he can outrace me with my stupid hip replacement. And then he realizes that not only does he anticipate being old and grey enough to need a hip replacement, but that he actually wants to get there.

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    Or: the existential crisis that happens when you’ve been depressed your whole life and then realize, suddenly, in your thirties, that you’re happy enough with your life that you no longer want to die.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    “Be careful,” Shane frets, one hand hovering over Ilya’s shoulder. “It’s icy, and I don’t want to be a widower.”

    “Oh, we’d have to be much higher than this for the fall to kill me,” Ilya says, gaze still fixed on the cool black skyline. “At least seven stories.”

    It’s not until much later, as the waitress is clearing the dishes from dinner, that Yuna finds herself wondering why Ilya knows exactly how high a fall needs to be in order to kill him. 

    Or: Yuna learns about Ilya's past bit by bit over the years.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    "Listen, Mr. Rozanov." The general manager is talking out of the side of his mouth, his cigarette dropping ashes all over the hotel table. "We like you. We want you. We understand you are putting yourself under a fair amount of risk here, meeting with us like this. I hope it's obvious that if you play for us, we will set you up for a good life in Canada."

    He pauses, looks Ilya in the eye. "But you have to understand, if you agree to this, you have to be prepared to leave with us right now."

    Red Army superstar Ilya Rozanov defects from the Soviet Union. A Cold War-era hockey AU

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    12 Mar 2026

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    17 Jan 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    17 Jan 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    17 Jan 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 57

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    “This isn’t the future,” Ronan said. It felt like stating the obvious. He wasn’t sure how to explain to Adam that they were not in a prophetic vision; they were in the landscape of Ronan’s childhood dreams.
    “No, it’s…,” Adam peered around the forest with shrewd, curious eyes. “It’s never been like this before.”
    “That might be my fault,” Ronan said morosely. “My brother thinks I don’t have a future. It could just be that there’s nothing to see.”

    or: it's the 1980s, and magic is real. ronan thinks he's the loneliest man in the world. then, he meets adam.

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    21 Dec 2025

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    21 Dec 2025

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    “Sure, but since you’re back so soon,” Ronan said carefully, like he was approaching a startled animal, “You have time to fuck me again before you leave.”
    “Before you leave,” Adam corrected, pointedly, annoyed that he was still wearing his sweaty running clothes. He should be done with his shower by now, but the imposition of Ronan’s half-naked presence in his apartment had once again thrown off his entire routine. “You were supposed to be gone already.”

    or: most of the time, ronan takes his crucifix off when they have sex. sometimes, he doesn't. sometimes, adam thinks he might be ready for a relationship. most of the time, he doesn’t.

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    07 Dec 2025

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    crying and throwing up about adam parrish

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    Andrew absolutely should not be interested in Kevin's protege.

    For one thing, he's too young.

    For another thing...

    Nope, that's it.

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    26 Nov 2025

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    07 Nov 2025

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    After an upbringing lacking in mundanity, Neil just wants to live a “normal” life. He’s got a home, a circle of friends, a job — why not give casual sex a shot?

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    15 Oct 2025

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    In the beginning, there is only Andrew. In the end, the universe.

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    27 Sep 2025

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    Adam was looking forward to his year of fieldwork in Ireland. He had a small cottage to himself, a job rehabilitating seals at the Wildlife Rescue, and time and space to conduct his own research. What he definitely hadn’t signed up for was babysitting the mysterious man who never seemed to leave the beach.

    Who was Ronan Lynch, anyways? What exactly was his obsession with the seals? And why did his sharp grin make Adam feel like he had been struck by lightning?

    The sea harbors many secrets, Adam Parrish.

    Written for TRC Reverse Big Bang 2021

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    15 Jul 2025

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    Adam gets trapped in a time loop with a morbid twist and finds an unlikely ally in Ronan Lynch.

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    21 May 2025

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    Fucking fine. Fuck. He was opening the app.
    Hello, greywaren! it greeted him cheerily. He rolled his eyes. You have 1 new match(es)!
    He steeled himself. Took a breath. Clicked on the notification bell.

    (The AU where Adam is a high-end escort and it goes exactly as you'd expect)

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    18 May 2025

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    “Christ, Kevin, would you just calm down?” she said, exasperated. “I mean, God, do you have a crush on him or something?”

    She did not expect Kevin to stare back at her, again, as if she were an idiot.

    “What?” she demanded.

    Kevin visibly hesitated. “They didn’t tell you?” he asked dubiously.

    “Tell me what? That you’re a bloody psycho?”

    Kevin stared at her some more. He flicked his gaze over her shoulder, to where she knew Andrew and Neil still were. When he looked at her again, a flush had begun to crawl up his neck. He cleared his throat. His lips parted on words that would not come.

    She stared back at him. “Oh my god, have you actually got a crush on Andrew?”

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    Five times the Foxes find out Neil has two boyfriends, plus one other time.

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    16 Aug 2022

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