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  1. Public Bookmark 63

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    “This is Ilya. Rozanov,” Shane tells the nurse, maybe a little bit louder than necessary. “He’s my teammate. Not anything else.”

    Ilya frowns again. His husband is acting very strangely.

    “Sure, Mr. Hollander,” the nurse says, giving Ilya a wink. “Don’t worry. Your secret is safe with me.”

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    Shane gets some dental work done and forgets he and Ilya aren’t already out. He tries to convince everyone they’re not actually married. He does a pretty terrible job.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    On a Monday morning in October, Shane Hollander drops a mug of coffee and doesn't get back up.

    Ilya is upstairs with the twins. He hears the sound — not the mug breaking, but the body. The thud of the person who holds it all upright. He puts the children down. He goes to the kitchen. Shane is on the floor, looking at Ilya, trying to say everything, but nothing comes out.

    Stroke. Left hemisphere. Thirty-eight years old.

    Shane spends six weeks in a hospital bed learning how to say his children's names. Ilya spends six weeks splitting himself into three people — the husband in the chair, the father in the nursery, the hockey player on the ice

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    07 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 16

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    “I was thinking,” Shane begins, and his tone is cautious, so Ilya is wary, “that you could get a dog.” Which is not what Ilya expected him to say at all. Shane shuffles closer to Ilya on the couch, rests a hand on his knee. “A service dog,” he clarifies.
    Ilya stares at him. “I am not blind, Shane,” he says.
    Shane laughs. “I know,” he says. “It wouldn’t be for blindness, it would be for your PTSD. C-PTSD.” He says the diagnosis matter-of-factly, the way he always does. Like it’s just another part of Ilya he loves, not a monster.

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    Or: Ilya gets a service dog

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    06 Jul 2026

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    He doesn’t remember how long he drove for. All he knew was that the further he drove, the more his eyes would swell with tears.

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    Or: What if the infamous Long Game fight ended differently? Wherein Ilya storms out of his house after Shane leaves and gets into a car accident.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    The pain in his calves started out subtle, only occurring at the tail end of runs or games. Shane’s a hockey player, he knows how to work through pain. This is nothing compared to when he played with bruised ribs after being slammed into the boards a little too hard by Rozanov. Now that is what Shane considered real pain to be, not this dull ache in his calves.
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    Or Shane Hollander gets diagnosed with a painful and chronic myofascial condition

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    06 Jul 2026