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Ilya has started a new antidepressant, one that he finally thinks is working, but he is still trying to find the right dose for him and every couple of weeks the dose gets changed and he finds himself experiencing a brand new symptom. He has finally put his foot down, asking his doctor to give him more than a few weeks to trial this dosage to see if the symptoms go away as well as just managing his depression, but he's only a week into this dosage and he's just downright exhausted. Permanently, it feels like.
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{Two Photos} Trouble in Paradise? Tense photos emerge of Ottawa Centaurs Captain Ilya Rozanov looking worse for wear following backlash regarding his attendance at his and business partner Shane Hollander's charity camps. Link to article here
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One year after announcing their marriage to the world, people begin to speculate that it’s all going downhill for Hollander and Rozanov after recent appearances feature Ilya looking worse for wear.
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12 Jul 2026
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Nothing by finelinelive
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 May 2026
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He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.
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ORIlya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.
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12 Jul 2026
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Ilya Without Jane by loudghost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Jun 2026
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Cliff Marlow was sure of 3 things. The first, was that he had been drafted to the best team in the entire NHL. The Bears were a family, kept in line by a good coaching staff, and a shark of a captain, who kept the locker room in check. No hazing of younger rookies anymore, no tolerance for bigoted bullshit either. The second, was that he was probably hopelessly in love with his regular barista who almost certainly had no idea who he was outside of ‘customer she sometimes casually flirted with’. She was cool as fuck and absolutely not a sports fan, which was Cliff’s usual move, and Cliff was terrified of her. A story for another day.
The third was that… something was wrong with his captain.
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12 Jul 2026
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Sad Boi Ilya by DepressedBlob
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Jun 2026
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After the night at the club, Cliff starts an emergency group chat with the other Bears to figure out how to help Rozanov get out of his slump.
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- Part 1 of Sad Boi Ilya Chronicles
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11 Jul 2026
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"Ooh, ooh, what was your first kiss like."
Ilya without thinking responded, "Which one?"
"What do you mean first one?"
"Girl or boy?"
"You've kissed a boy!"
"Have you not?"
Ilya was trying to play it off. Fully realizing he is talking to a man, who plays hockey, and hasn't previously mentioned being ok with people liking the same gender.
Or: Ilya’s been sad, Cliff says they should get drunk. They end up playing 20 questions poorly.
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11 Jul 2026