Toumorokoshi



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    Shane had stumbled onto this corner of Archive of Our Own entirely by accident—or at least, that’s the lie he was going to tell his agent, his teammates, and God until his dying day.

    —or—

    When Dallas Kent creates a massive PR disaster, rivals Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are handed a corporate ultimatum: fake date each other for the cameras, or sit out a season-long suspension. Now trapped in this shitty situation, they have to map out a public "romance strategy," they have a strict no-touching rule behind closed doors. Too bad Shane is currently treating AO3 tags like a hockey drill, and Ilya is losing his mind.

    ( There are interactive elements within the story! Look out for messages between characters and frames containing information. Just tap or hover on them to see the text messages! and other things just like my other story)

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    29 Jun 2026

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    10/10 absolutt mesterverk

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    Again, Ilya feels the shame flare in his belly. He imagines his father across the counter from them, watching this unfold. Watching Ilya be babied by his fucking boyfriend over an injury. He remembered how he’d yell at his mother for babying Ilya, the word soft being thrown around a lot.

    But Ilya likes being babied. He likes watching Shane fuss and frown as he portions out the pills, filling a glass with Ilya’s favorite juice to wash them down with, then bustling up and back down the stairs with Ilya’s favorite pillow and the sleep mask he keeps in his travel bag for planes and hotels.

    He is soft. Weak too, probably. His father’s voice spits through his thoughts, sharp and disgusted. Ilya feels them settle on his shoulders, tug at his spine.

    “You okay?” Shane asks, hair messy from the shower, Ilya’s pillow against his chest.

    His father’s voice fades.

    “Yes, moya lyubov. I am okay.”

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    Or, a shoulder injury takes Ilya out for the season ten games into his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs. With one good arm and an empty house, Ilya battles with memories of his parents and his mental health.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Lese seinere

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    Lily: Sorry, I didn’t get to say goodbye

    Shane had found the message sweet despite his disappointment. Now it just feels… ominous.

    That’s usually the point when Shane has to get out of bed and pace around his bedroom and remind himself that, if Ilya is ghosting him (he is not, he’s not, he’s not), then he is also ghosting the rest of the fucking world. Because that is the thing that truly, really, terrifies him.

    No one has heard of Ilya Rozanov in nearly three weeks.

    Shane hasn’t been getting much sleep lately.

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    After Tampa. Things between Shane and Ilya are finally starting to look stable… until Ilya drops off the face of the Earth with little warning. Shane spirals (a lot) and decides he’s going to find his man if it’s the last thing he does.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Lese seinere

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    During the 'easier' episodes Ilya can manage.

    Usually he can gather enough strength to get out of bed, even if it's just to slouch around the cottage or outside. He'll eat whatever Shane puts in front of him. He'll put on a brave face when Yuna and Dave come over to visit. And then when the evening rolls around he's so exhausted he falls asleep around eight.

    The 'heavy' episodes are harder.

    Ilya will spend most of the day sleeping. He will eat small bites of whatever Shane gives him, sometimes nothing at all. Showering is out of the question. If it's a particular bad episode, he won't even leave the bed.

    Shane is scared to leave Ilya alone during the 'heavy' episodes.

    He knows Ilya wouldn't hurt himself on purpose. But he also knows that depression is very complex and sneaks up on their victims when they're most vulnerable.

    Or, Ilya experiences a bad depression episode. Shane is there to catch him when he falls.

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    19 Jun 2026