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    "So this is your plan?" Ilya looked up, his voice dripping with contempt. "You want to buy me a dog so I stop biting?"

    Or: Shane expects to be a punching bag for a cruel alpha. Poor omega has no idea that he's actually about to be loved.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Weeks later, when the news finally breaks, the headlines will call it a “catastrophic brain injury”.

    They’ll analyze the hit from every angle, trying to find just what went so wrong. It was clean, it was legal… and yet it somehow slammed Shane Hollander into the ice hard enough to end his career.

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    or, another take on shane’s injury in episode 5 being much, much worse.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

    More Details on the Main Character Death Tag

    Hey! The MCD tag is STRICTLY for the death of the Centaurs team, right from the beginning. Neither Ilya nor Shane die at any point in the fic.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    "Shane," Bood says firmly. And it sounds so wrong, because Bood never calls him Shane. Shane is always Hollzy. And Bood's voice is supposed to be loud and steady, not shaky. And Shane finally, finally becomes aware enough of his surroundings to feel the trembling of Bood's hands against his waist. "Shane, please. They're working on him. We need to give them space so they can—so they can make sure he's okay."

    "He's my husband," Shane chokes out, not quite managing to choke down the sob that's been building up long enough to boil over. Bood makes a similarly choked noise at that. "You need to let me go. He's my husband."

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    Ilya gets injured on the ice during Shane's first season with the Centaurs. Shane loses his mind, a bit.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    "Now I'll keep it simple as I am a simple man, 10 million per boy, cash, should suffice." It felt like a rock dropped in Ilya's stomach when he heard the price on their heads. Each of them had earned around that amount in their careers, but such a large sum was not something either of them had just lying around.

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    Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander, two of the world's biggest NHL players, vanish into the night without a trace. Stashed away in a cold concrete prison, the two only have one thing on their minds

    Survival.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane rested his forehead against Ilya’s, closing his eyes. “I’m gonna ride you, is that okay?”

    Ilya nipped at his bottom lip. “I don’t know, let me think. This is same as asking me, is Shane Hollander the best hockey player in the world? Obviously yes.”

    And oh, the honest praise was all worth it for the private smile that lit up Shane’s face right then. He kissed Ilya once, slow and sweet. “Shut up,” he murmured, smiling into it. “You’re an asshole.”

    Ilya was a little achy with how happy he was, such a wild contrast to his overwhelming grief only moments ago. “I finally admit you are better than me, and now I am an asshole? I think not, Hollander.” He gripped Shane’s hips and flipped them over, the sound of Shane’s breathy laughter while Ilya kissed him into the mattress like medicine for his soul.

    Episode 5 in depth: the beach, the all-star game, and if Shane and Ilya made love in that hotel room before confessing their love.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Welcome to my conspiracy theory that there is an alternate timeline to the Great Tuna Meltdown of October 2016. What would have happened if Shane *had* stayed the night? This is a look at the evening and morning that could have been.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    After dissociating for a few hours there’s another knock at Ilya’s door.
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    Shane comes back after the tuna meltdown and they stumble their way through an actual conversation.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    [Audio length: 1:12:40]

    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

    Podfic of

    Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight

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    08 Jun 2026

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    At twenty-five, Shane works from home in cyber security. He gets all his groceries delivered. He avoids the outside world whenever possible. Finally—finally—he caves to his parents’ insistence that it’s time to purchase an omega.

    Ilya is supposed to be difficult. That’s what the auction house warned him, anyway. They aren’t wrong. Between the language barrier, the violent mood swings, incessant noise, and feral behaviors, Ilya is nothing like the obedient omegas Shane is raised to expect. Half the time, Shane can’t tell if the man hates him, fears him, or is losing his damn mind. Probably all of them, all the time. The other half of the time, Ilya watches him like he’s waiting for Shane to spring a trap. News flash: there isn’t one.

    Shane doesn't have any inkling of what he’s doing. He’s never shared space with another human being before. Let alone an omega who doesn't understand personal space. As the walls crack between them, Shane notices things he never questioned before. He realizes there is something deeply troubling in the world he grew up in.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov does not let a little bit of influenza get between him and a Boston-Montreal game. Shane Hollander (and also Cliff Marlow) think this is stupid as fuck. Featuring: some angsty fights, Cliff being confused af but supportive regardless, and surprise appearances by Yuna, David, and pneumonia!

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Being a professional athlete in a contact sport is an exercise in enduring pain. Sometimes you get benched for three weeks because you have a broken cheekbone after you get hit in the face with a slap shot. Sometimes you play through a strained quad, a bruised shoulder, a mild fever. Most times, it’s just the constant, unending soreness that comes with pushing your body to its limit every single day. Every athlete had an injury they hated most, though, one that’s particularly painful or recurrent or just annoying. 

    Ilya fucking hated injuring his ribs. There is almost nothing you can do with your body that doesn't involve moving your torso, and the pain is deep, throbbing, and gets just a tiny bit worse every time you breathe. Sitting up hurts, lying down hurts, walking hurts, and worst of all, coughing fucking hurts.

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    Ilya is sick and injured in the off-season. Luckily, Shane loves him so very much and is there to take care of him.

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    31 May 2026

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    They pulled in a man, bound by his wrists and throat, the lower half of his face hidden beneath a metal muzzle. He walked with a limp, weighed down by the chains on his body and stumbled as the guards pulled at the chains viciously, just barely able to keep himself upright.

    It took a moment for the scent to fill the room. 

    Or: Rebel Leader Ilya gets captured and presented to the Crown Prince of the Empire, Shane. By logic, they should hate each other. Something's in the air that makes it hard to.

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    30 May 2026

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    If there’s ever been any doubt in his mind just how much Shane loves this man, it vanishes with the glossy blankness of Ilya’s expression. Blood from a stone indeed.

    “My father was very fair,” Ilya says immediately, and it’s got the rigid, almost mechanical emphasis of something practiced a thousand times. “If I was bad, I pay price. No problem.”

    “I think maybe we have a different definition of the word fair.”

    “Yes,” Ilya admits. “Probably. Shane thinks so.”

    Podfic of Duty of Care by boopboop.

    This podfic is now complete.

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    27 May 2026

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    Following a forced and early retirement from the NHL, Shane Hollander finds himself spending his days working at the local Omega Shelter where he can still make a difference with his life.

    One evening in early autumn, a bloody and bruised Ilya Rozanov walks into his arms and changes the projection of his life forever.

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    21 May 2026

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    Following the move to Ottawa, Ilya is struggling to keep his head above water. The Centaurs seem incapable of winning, his house is still half-unpacked at best, and Shane is two hours away in Montreal. After months of struggling alone, Ilya unexpectedly shows up at the Hollanders’ house one night, terrified of his own thoughts.

    In the months that follow, Ilya hits low after low, struggling with his newly-diagnosed depression. David and Yuna do their best to be there for him while distance is still keeping Shane and Ilya apart.

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    19 May 2026

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    ‘Hello, my name is Shane. Can you see this?’

    ‘What is this?’

    ‘I think we are connected. Everything on your skin appears on mine.’

     

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    For as long as Shane can remember, he skin has been littered with marks he is sure he didn't create. Cuts, bruises, and pen stains that he has no memory of. Yuna is the one to investigate the rare phenomenon of soulmates- people linked together with their skin. Everything that happens to one person marks the other.

    Follow Shane and Ilya as they meet in an unconventional way as children and learn and grow together.

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    14 May 2026

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