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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

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    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    17 Jul 2026

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    “I thought Ilya was, like, the man here,” Hayden motioned. Something suspiciously sounding like Jackie’s voice in the back of his brain told him that wasn’t the right wording, but he was too tired and already too buzzed to care. Besides, this was Shane, he didn’t need to say the perfect thing. Shane knew what he meant.

    Scott shifted. “They are both men, Hayden” he said very formally. Hayden suddenly felt like his dad was lecturing him.

    Hayden sighed. “No, Shane, you know what I mean.”

    Shane’s brow furrowed in concentration. “Like, because I bottom?” He said, slightly embarrassed.

    Scott’s steady gaze on Hayden suddenly turned very sharp.

    “No!” Hayden started. “Well, maybe? I don’t know how that works. I just mean, like, you’re real gay and Ilya likes women, right?”

    OR 5 times Hayden realizes other people know his best friend better than him, and the 1 time Shane tells him himself.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    17 Jul 2026

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    Immediately follows the fight on Boxing Day, where Ilya tells Shane to leave. To please go home.

    After seeking advice from a trusted friend, Shane returns to make things right between them.

    Truths will be revealed, exposing the cracks in their relationship that Shane hasn't seen and Ilya hasn't wanted to reveal; forcing hard conversations and even harder decisions.

    Is love enough to keep them together? If so, what needs to change? Will anything stay the same?

    The biggest question Shane asks himself as they wade through years of miscommunication and hurt is 'Where do we go from here?'

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Hayden invites Shane on holiday, determined to use the winter break to convince his best friend that he can do better than Ilya Rozanov, asshole extraordinaire. But he certainly didn't count on his boyfriend coming along for the trip.

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    15 Jul 2026