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    Flowers. There were goddamn flowers—a whole bouquet of lillies—sticking out of Shane’s locker for the whole team to see.

    “Hollander, you fucking beauty!” Mitty whooped. Someone slapped him on the back. A chorus of hoots and wolf whistles filled the room as everyone took turns peering over shoulders to get a better look.

    Hayden turned to him, wide-eyed and a little bewildered. “You and Lily are that serious, man?”

    Shane opened his mouth to reply, but before he could find the words, J.J. cleared his throat exaggeratedly, readying to read something, and oh god, was that a note he’d just pulled out of Shane’s locker?

    He was going to kill Ilya, seriously.

    Ilya decides to surprise Shane with a bouquet after their game against each other, posing as Lily.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    The day after attending a charity event in Vancouver, Shane, Ilya, Scott, and a few other players board a plane to take them to Tampa for 2017 All Stars.

    The plane goes down somewhere in the wilderness, in the middle of a storm.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    12 Jun 2026

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    In the offseason, a steamy video of Shane and Ilya dancing at a club goes viral. Already out and married for years at this point, the first husbands of hockey can't believe this is news. For once, it's Shane whose media responses blow it up even further. Ilya’s not about to let an opportunity to compete with Shane go to waste.

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    The rivalry still hasn't died, they just find new ways to keep it going. Why choose silence when you can choose violence?

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    10 Jun 2026