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  1. Public Bookmark 64

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    August 2007: Shane Hollander is 16 years old, a star rookie for the Halifax Bucks, and totally, completely, fine.

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    19 May 2026

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    Ilya makes Shane a friendship bracelet.

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    07 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    06 May 2026

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  4. Public Bookmark 79

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    Turning 40 was supposed to be celebrated. It was another milestone, another decade completed. It wasn’t as revered as 30 was, but people still threw parties and highlighted their 40th birthdays. Yet Ilya wasn’t unaffected. In fact, he was the complete opposite—he dreaded this birthday.

    He should be happy. He had a wonderful husband, a beautiful home, and a daughter, whom he was (terrified) excited to raise. But he wasn’t. Turning 40 wasn't a fun day—it was a reminder. A reminder that he will have spent 40 years being alive on this Earth, 28 of those existing without his beloved mother.

    Irina Rozanova, who was a beautiful and kind woman, who died at 39. Irina Rozanova, whom Ilya found at 12, laying on her side, cold and still with a bottle of pills on her nightstand, the woman who never got to see her 40th year.

    He knew this day was coming. He knew that one day he’d have his first year where he would be older than his mother was when she had died (if he even made it to that age). But that didn’t mean he was prepared for the feelings it would bring. And Ilya didn’t know if he could handle them.

    (He couldn’t).

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    04 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    02 Apr 2026