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i do all my own healing (manage all my feelings) by somniatoressinespe
Fandoms: The Half of It (2020)
29 May 2020
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Ellie doesn’t expect the first letter to arrive.
(She doesn’t expect for them to keep coming either and yet.)
or "ellie goes to college but that doesnt mean she can leave aster behind"
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03 Jul 2026
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“That time in the hallway,” Aster starts all of the sudden, her hands reaching for Ellie’s like she couldn’t stop herself from touching her otherwise.
She resists the urge to bury her face into them. “God, I must have seemed such an idiot.”
“No,” Aster smiles, and it’s too kind. Ellie tugs at her hands. Aster laughs. “Well yeah, a bit. But I—I didn’t know why, but I kept rambling—”
“You rant when you’re nervous.”
Aster’s smile turns so bright at Ellie’s interruption and then bursts into a small giggle. “Yeah. I wanted you to talk to me.”
Ellie scrunches up her nose. “Why?”
“You were…” Aster trails off, untangling one of her hands and waving it in the air, “Different.”
She catches her hand back. “Yeah.”
“No. Well, that too,” Aster adds, before shaking her head, her hair falling in front of her eyes- Ellie wants to brush them back behind her ear- “I meant, I’ve read one or two of your English papers.”
“You did?”
“Trig had a way too high average in that class,” Aster explains.
“So, you wanted to talk to me because I wrote your ex-boyfriend’s homework?”
“You have a way,” Aster says- very fucking cryptically, in Ellie’s opinion.
“A way?”
“When you look at people…” Aster huffs a half laugh, shaking her head and looking away from her, “You focus on them. I don’t know how to explain it, but you make me feel seen. And I wanted that.”
“And now?”
Aster takes her hand in hers, brushing her thumb over her knuckles. “Now I just want you.”
“Oh,” Ellie can feel herself turn a patchy kind of red, “No big deal?”
“Hardly so,” Aster disagrees, kissing her quickly- Ellie’s eyes flutter close just as quickly, and she wants to chase her lips again, but Aster is already gone, “What do you want?”
And she could be romantic now, say something like they would in the movies.
I want to take your hand and bring you to my favourite secret places, she could say, all of them, all mine, all yours.
I want to let you see me, she could say, and I want to let you love me, and I want you to want to still love me after.
She says: “A taco sausage.”
Aster’s laugh resonates in her small dorm, and Ellie doesn’t think she’s ever felt like this, ever. She feels the kind of happy she used to feel when her mother was still alive. She feels bad for even thinking it.
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Kazuha confesses softly. “What if I only accepted his proposal so that the news would reach you?”
Yunjin’s heart cries out.
“I’m tired of acting like I don’t remember everything.” Kazuha whispers. “Please stop pretending you don’t know me.”
;; shinez royalty au
where yunjin is assigned to give kazuha, her ex-childhood best friend, lessons on how to be a good wife, now that she’s engagedBookmarked by RealClever
01 Jul 2026
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“I believe love is one of the few things we will never truly understand, so it’s an exquisite means for justification when all rationale is gone.” She replies. “Sometimes we do rotten things. And to not feel foolish, we call it love. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn’t. But it’s quite strange… the entire perception of love. To submit yourself like that… It's terrifying. It creates space for deception. It breeds a sense of security that can feel harrowing when broken.”
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When Aster Flores and her young son go on the run from her abusive husband, the last thing she is expecting is to find love. In her search for home, she and her son find so much more than they were looking for.
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29 Jun 2026
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The longer Aster spent with Ellie, the more she got to understand why Ellie and Paul were close friends.
They both had the same brand of good on them.
While Paul was loud, and boisterous, and emphatically happy; Ellie was more quiet about her happiness, and reserved to not be so bold. Paul was the life of the party, Ellie was the home you went too after the party was done and you needed that peace.
Despite their differences though, the good shone through on both of them, all of the qualities that Aster loved on Paul, like his kindness, and his sweetness, and his adoration of Tommy… Aster saw the same in the way Ellie looked at her and her son.
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Paul isn't good with words.
And even though words don’t always work for him, (they just… they just don’t go together sometimes. Logically, you say the words and the words mean what they mean. But sometimes people talk and they mean more than their words and it’s like he’s stuck doing addition while everyone else is doing multiplication.) there is more than one way to talk.
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29 Jun 2026
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The second time Paul interacts with Mr. Chu, Ellie isn’t there to translate for him, but that’s fine. Mr. Chu shows him how to make dumplings, and they spend the afternoon together talking with spoons and rolling pins and knives. His dumplings come out wonky and a little sadly shaped, (though one looks like a dinosaur so he did something right) but Mr. Chu smiles and says something in Chinese so Paul smiles back and gives him a big hug.
(Even if you don’t speak the same language, hugs are usually good things. But Paul knows he and Mr. Chu do speak something of the same language here, so he knows that Mr. Chu knows that he meant to say thank you.)
This sets off a series of cooking days with Mr. Chu. Sometimes Ellie’s there, hovering in the background and grinning bemusedly at them, but sometimes she isn’t, and it’s just the two of them in the kitchen, speaking the language they both share.
Paul learns how to make buns stuffed with red bean paste and soup that is way too spicy for him. (Though he’ll never admit it in front of Ellie) He teaches Mr. Chu how to make sausage tacos, and Mr. Chu treats the entire process with a serious gaze and careful intent, which makes Paul’s chest kind of warm and happy. This is respect, he knows. Embodied not in a word that sometimes fails him but in an action that he will always know.
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After her mother's death, fourteen year old Ellie Chu joins her engineer father on the ocean liner where he works. There, she meets Aster Flores, a child girl with a streak of paint on her cheek and a piece of red string connecting her pinky to Ellie's.