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"I've turned it over in my mind again and again," Nesta said, and looking at her now he saw the glassiness of her eyes. The faraway look that indicated some sort of shock. "It must have been about equality, right? I'm your mate, I'm expected to be equal to you."
Cassian's mouth fell open, and he looked helplessly at Azriel who, despite all his efforts at constant stoicism, appeared nothing short of stricken.
"I know it must be a disappointment that I did not make Carynthian."
"Nesta," His brother began, his voice strained. "Do you think we put you in that Rite?"
His mate finally lifted her gaze, settling her unfocused eyes on the shadowsinger without any real heat in them.
"Didn't you?"
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In which, in the aftermath of the Blood Rite, Nesta's mind suffers more than Cassian realizes, resulting in a horrific misunderstanding.- Language:
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01 Jun 2026
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If You're Lonely in Chicago (You Can Call Me Baby) by Pumpkinspice_Lou for dustjackets
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
18 Dec 2022
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"I didn’t want to do this over the phone because I didn’t want you to have the chance to hang up on me when I asked you for a favor."
Nesta sighs, already pulling her notepad toward her and grabbing a pen. "What kind of trouble did you get yourself into this time? No guarantees I can bail you out."
"Very funny, but no," Cassian shoots back dryly. "I need you to come home with me for the holidays."
Nesta and Cassian broke up, but Cassian hasn't told his mother, so now they're pretending while home for the holidays, but will those remaining real feelings stay hidden?
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Hands On by HeadCanonHeadCase
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
24 Apr 2022
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What a pair they make: both starved for physical contact. One afraid to receive it, the other to give it.
Gwyn struggles with physical contact. Azriel is ashamed of his scared hands. What happens when Azriel needs to help during training and the only way he can teach her is by positioning her hand? They agree that Azriel can touch her, and Gwyn won’t shy away from his hands.
Now Gwyn finds herself obsessed with Azriel's hands and they things they make her feel.
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30 Jan 2026
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Heavy In Your Arms by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
24 Nov 2025
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"Excuse me," she manages, standing abruptly. The room tilts slightly, and she has to catch herself on the back of her chair.
"Are you alright?" Feyre is half out of her seat, concern etched across her features.
"Yes," she says. "I just need some air."
"You look pale," Cassian says quietly. He's watching her with those sharp hazel eyes that see too much. "Maybe you should—"
"I said I'm fine." The words come out sharper than she intends, but another cramp is building and she needs to get out of here before she breaks down in front of them. Before they have more ammunition to use against her.
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Nesta's first fae cycle hits during a tense family dinner, but she doesn't understand what's happening to her body. Determined not to show weakness, she pushes through the pain until she collapses during training the next morning. When Cassian discovers the extent of her suffering, everything changes.
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29 Jan 2026
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Happier Than Ever by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
13 Feb 2026
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The bond flares to life in her chest—sharp, bright, Cassian—and Nesta’s entire body goes rigid even as she forces herself to reveal nothing.
Cassian lands first, Azriel following close behind. They’re both in their leathers, both clearly having come straight from Windhaven. Cassian’s face breaks into a grin when he sees her, sees the gathering, and something about that unguarded joy makes her throat close up.
“Well, isn’t this nice,” he says, striding inside with that easy confidence she used to find thrilling. “A family gathering and nobody told me?”
He crosses to where Nesta stands with Nyx, and before she can brace herself, he’s there, solid and warm and overwhelming. His hand comes to rest on the small of her back, familiar and possessive, and he presses a kiss to her temple that she feels like a brand.
“Hey, sweetheart,” he murmurs against her hair. “Miss me?”
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Months after Bryce Quinlan returned to Midgard, Nesta barely recognizes herself anymore. She can't wrap her mind around the concept of forever when she never asked to be immortal in the first place.
When Nesta finally breaks, Cassian is forced to confront every way he's failed her.
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